On Sat we arrived at the Healing Rooms, being part of our activation to minister out to others. I was transitioned from being a red dot (not able to pray for people) to being a yellow dot who is able to pray but under the guidance of a team leader (green dot). That was cool and unexpected.
The team leader for Skype asked me to pray for people over Skype. Even though I alerted her to the fact that I was only 'just' a yellow dot and that with Skype it is only one person interacting with the caller ie. there would be no green dot overseeing. She said that she would like to me to do it and even asked Carole to be praying alongside me, interceding for me.
My reaction? This was a, 'being thrown in the deep end experience' but I felt that perhaps I should take the risk. I thus donned my earphones and was given quick instructions on how to operate their Skype system.
My first caller was a lady from Alaska. I think she had MS or something similar and was in great pain. I prayed and released the love of Jesus upon but I felt completely inadequate and under-confident . Also, the connection speed to Alaska was very poor and it was extremely difficult to communicate, especially when I continued to hear my voice echoing in the background.(It felt like I was listening to myself on the radio with a 10 second delay). So although Carole was not able to hear the conversation, she could hear what I was saying and was praying for me and offering suggestions in the background. The lady caller indicated that she had received some pain relief, and although that was good, to me, overall, my first experience was not altogether positive. My Skype supervisor came alongside after that first call and reminded me that it had nothing to do with my prayers, the construction of my praying, the length of my prayers or anything to do with me. She indicated that I needed to cease from striving to get this woman healed and that I needed to sit back, relax and rest in Him, allowing Him to minister His healing Grace through me.
Although this was difficult for me to hear, it made me realize that I can't afford to default to a position of striving and trying in my strength to give a 'magic touch' prayer that will bring about the lady's healing.
I then continued to pray for people with these things in mind and I did see some improvement in a number of people although some of the callers could not identify whether they were healed on not however, the last lady who started with a pain level of 10 said that after prayer it had dropped to around 5 1/2. Certainly this was a positive outcome and encouraging.

Overall, although this is not one of my most positive experiences, I realized that this is part of the training ground that I need to be in and that I need to be prepared to fail and miss the mark before I can grow and develop in this area.
My natural reaction would be to say 'this is too hard and embarrassing and not for me, so I won't proceed!' But, I have to be like a child and learn from others if I really want to develop in this area and grow; so as to become more aware of Who it is that lives in me and learn how to release His goodness and grace to others.
Next Friday we will be attending a new SG being a group of people from the Healing Rooms. I feel like the group's aims being to take the love of the Father and His healing Grace to people in the world; to go into the community and release the love and healing grace of Jesus upon people; and to grow in intimacy with the Father, lines up with our heartbeat. This too will be challenging but critically necessary for Carole and me if we are going to grow and develop in this area.