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So I've been pretty busy lately and actually have not written in forever. Sorry! It's actually pretty helpful to write and without it I kind of go insane. So basically, whenever I struggle with something I either bottle it up or blab it all out to people who I am sure are sick of hearing it. Welp, I'm really going to try to be done with that. That is what the whole point of this blog started out to be right? Exactly. Here is my new plan of action, thanks to Meredith; everyday I am going to write down what I am thankful for and something great that happened. I won't do it on here all the time, just when I have big updates. In previous blogs I have mentioned all the things that are going great in my life right now and I hate when I lose sight of that. I don't understand how I can be upset sometimes when I have so much going my way. So, I am starting off today as a new person. As F. Scott Fitzgerlad wrote, "I hope you live a life you are proud of. If you find that you are not, I hope you find the strength to start all over again." This is me starting over, or at least taking bits of who I was and reworking it.
Here's a guideline.
1. I am done apologizing for things I have done. I can't expect anyone else to get over it until I am over it first. Although I will probably always be sorry, consistently apologizing will never get me anywhere and it's time to move past it.
2. I'm focusing on now. I usually have all these great plans for my future and who will be part of it. Welp, I'm not doing that anymore. I am living for me and getting my work done now. Living and breathing in the present so that when it does become my past, I can be proud of it.
3. I stole this from a website, but it makes perfect sense. Say that everything that happens to me is exactly what I want. The minute I start taking it that way will make everything else seem less serious.
4. Find myself. I'm not sure what else there is to add to that but that's how it goes. I'm not going to force myself to figure it out, I'm going to let it happen.
5. I'm done criticizing myself because what has it done for me? It has made me bitter and angry for too long. I have to accept that we are humans and we make mistakes. Accept everything I did, accept that I could have done it better but I didn't. Forgive myself.
I'm currently addicted to the Jason Mraz song called Living in the Moment. The best line is "I'm letting myself off the hook for things I've done. I let my past go past and now I'm having more fun." Well duh, that makes so much sense and I'm not sure why I needed a song to tell me all of that.
So here I am with 12 days left in the UK and despite my finals that I should be studying for, I am going to live it up. Life is amazing and beautiful and wonderful. And I've wasted too much of it not being happy...or even being me. So here's to the future and all the surprises it may hold for me. =]
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