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So before anyone gets worried about me, just know I'm fine. I promise!
There was really nothing to do today. I read a lot and just sat around. Kels and I made dinner and then Carson came down as well. I skyped with my parents earlier. I really can't complain because it's been a good, relaxing day. But I can't help but miss my friends. I was so bored today but I couldn't just walk to Dickman's to hang out. I couldn't sit around with Kristen and straighten her hair. Even though I have Kels, I also feel so lonely. We've made friends but it's just not the same. We both agree that those people are not the type of people we're usually friends with and we know it won't last. I'm happy I'm here but at the same time, I wish I could fly home for a weekend just to see everyone. I knew I would have my ups and downs but it's just been a really hard day. I have this perfect picture of how my life should be and it's not that way. I'm not sure how to get there either. I know perfection is impossible, but it would be nice to be close to it.
I'm also scared for class tomorrow. I have a feeling I'll walk into this giant room and see tons of people. And they'll know I'm American. Which isn't a bad thing, but I don't want to be seen as an outsider. Hopefully things go smoothly and there won't be any problems. I'll let you know how it goes!
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