A Strange Day!! Today I woke very early but managed to lay in bed until about 6:30am. I was feeling good and started my day as usual with breakfast and then some of these strange ablutions we had been practicing. I headed down to the ashram just before 8am and started my meditation - it was incredibly difficult to focus today and after an hour and a half I had barely achieved any silence but did observe my all to familiar monkey brain making mess of my emotions. Meditation is a constant journey and I know everyday can't be perfect so I forget today and look for the next moment. I think aswell it is not a great idea to eat breakfast and then head straight into meditation as for two days now my stomach has been feeling uneasy for the first few hours. I moved straight into my yoga and hear I was able to focus, I felt strong, confident and flexible - attributes I want to bring over into my daily life. After I had finished my yoga I did some relaxation and another short meditation that improved dramatically from this mornings session. I did my Karma yoga (burning toilet paper) and then sat in the sunshine reading my book making the most of the once again limited sunshine. I had organized with Elizabeth to go to the dock swimming but after we had eating lunch the clouds came in and it didn't look so conducive to swimming. None the less we headed into town and I made my way down to the dock to grab the last of the disappearing sunshine and contemplate the universe. Everyday I feel different, everyday I feel reborn and although this is not the most comfortable or easy feeling I am starting to embrace it. I realize for most of my life I have been a control freak and my greatest goal shall to be release myself from this hold and try and go with the flow a bit more. I do my best not to think of the future any more then I need to - which is hard in itself but I try. In the evening I had a Skype call with the newest member of our family Jay and what a delight it was to see him for only the second time ever. My mother and sister are totally infatuated with him and I can see he brings then much joy which makes me incredibly happy.

OBSERVATIONS:
- 1/2 way mark of course