Testing!! Today started wonderfully and instead of rushing down to get in some extra meditation I decided to read a little and chat with my wonderful housemates before class. Meditation started and immediately I found it difficult to concentrate and had a lot of feelings of want and uneasiness come over me. When these emotions arose its hard to seperate from them but I must continue in my practice and realize to find myself I must suffer a little - specially during meditation. As soon as I had found calm the 45 minute session was over. Yoga today started with sun salutations (something I am not perfect at) and the difficulty engaged me but still my mind wondered. I also began to have a lot of doubts today but bringing my concentration back to my body and postures seemed to ground me. We tried new postures today which were great and I realized the need to keep things mixed up. Relaxation was good and our short 15 minute meditation after relaxation helped calm my mind more. I had a thirst or hunger pain for most of the session and by 11:30am I was certainly ready for some food - paying attention to my body finally as opposed to eating on the clock. Today's lecture involved Krias which are things we can do to clean our bodies and promote good health - a really interesting and useful subject but I did have some trouble excepting all practices. Really interesting ideas that cams up was a nitty pot for cleaning our nasal passages, a tongue scrape, gum cleaning, and various colon and intestine cleanses - I am definitely not sold on all practices but I can certainly see the benefits of taking extra care of our bodies. The rain had started again and I am half thinking the lack of sun has something to do with my off-energy today but not being able to do much I headed to my room; rugged-up and started reading about Ayudervic medicine and lifestyles.