i recently had a parent approach me to speak to me about her personal life. it was 8 am in the morning. she told me that her and her current man had gotten into a such a fight that they broke the flat screen tv...she told me that her husband had chosen to "be" with another woman for the past year and she was tired of it. This other woman had continously texted her through her man's phone . When she texted her, she texted her back asking her to fight but the girl never wanted to fight. She literally said, "one day i got in my truck and went to find her, if i had found her i would have beat the s*** out of her. but she is scared of me. she won't fight with me. we were going to meet at the recreation center but she didn't show up!" She continued to tell me how she was ready to leave twin lakes and move to a bigger city, "im a city girl!"
As i reflected on this conversation, i realized just how blessed i am. the stresses that this woman is enduring is unreal. her son commited suicide when he was 11, she has been in fights with so many people, financial troubles, and who knows what type of family support she may or may not be recieving. i am trying to learn the importance having a life perspective of gratitude. i have never had financial troubles, material needs, or a lack of good friends. i have been given, given, given, given. it is unreal how much i have been given. it makes me think about this Bible verse, "But the one who does not know and does things deserving punishment will be beaten with few blows. From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked." She has not had other experiences to teach her better...but i have. I have been given so much love, joy and happiness that I know i have been put in that position to give more to others. I have been entrusted to care for many students, i have been entrusted to teach and guide them. I have been entrusted to give them emotional supports. This is a grand task. I've got to learn the importance of this task in each and everyday. It is difficult for me..sometimes i'd rather just relax and let the kids relax...i think there is a time and place for this but i have got to find the right time and place for this...
i write all that just to say, thank you God. Thank you for making me and putting me in the world in the way that You did. I have alot to offer the world and i have alot i have got to be thankful for. I have to let this understanding seep into my being. help me to do that. and help me to live every day to the fullest...please help me to not let this graduate school stuff weigh me down. please help me to continue to balance that with the rest of my day. help me to make my day meaningful and not directed at one cause (except for You) and to spend it enjoying many different things and taking note of the beauty and strangeness of life...
on a lighter note..after getting done with an ALL DAY IEP, i come into the classroom and the students come up to me and start hugging me...and chloe (who never says this) has begun to say, "i love you" and will just grab me while saying it...this was the 2nd time she did it!!! it was SUPER SWEET!! i love her too. then aaliyah and taniel came up and hugged me and told me they loved me too =) and then all the pick up kids hugged me and they all said, "I LOVE YOU" as we are huggin.....awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww I HEART KINDERGARTEN!!!!
also this is a funny thing that robert said to me:me: gahh, i got a papercut.
child: ms. singh you know what you should do? you should go to the blue hospital, and go to the doctor, those doctors are terrifying, and they'll buzz you with the buzz thing like this, "BUZUUZZZZZZZZZ" (child falls to the floor)
me: are you talking about a taser?
child: yeah those things!