alright (im changing up the way i start my blog entries..usually i start with so...i have been inspired by a student i have begun to tutor...when i give him a task to complete he says, "alright" alot...its pretty dang cute).
alright, im exhausted so i will do a quick update of todays high points...i want to live with the realization that each and everyday has its value and purpose...and nothing is random..the people we meet, the people we talk to, the interactions we haev throughout the day are all ordained by the Big Guy (is this true Big Guy?) are each and every moment of our lives ordained by You?? Is it important to fill our days with You and Your purposes...? I am confused...? I feel like i hear a...yes...hmmmmmm
here they are:
1) taniel: (i had just asked her to count to 100) after she got done counting to 100 she said, "when i was smaller (age 4) i usto couldn't count..i would say 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20 but i would get messed up when got to 20. and then when i turned 5 i could count more and now that i'm older i know how to count to 100! (current age: 6)
2) Elijah: Ms. Singh you look pretty today.
Ms.Singh: that is so sweet elijah! where did you learn to say that?
elijah: from you.
cue it: SUPER awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
3) I was feeling down...dwelling on somethings. dwelling ....when out of no where Aaliyah ran up to me and said, "I love you Ms. Singh"
it was exactly what i needed to hear at the right time. The first thing i thought (besides aw man thats great) was, is that from you Big Guy? It must be.....it must be so....i feel like i hear the big guy saying...yes. yes, my child, yes it is.
4) i texted kim before church and she said she may come...i txted her back and told her i would love to see her there...and she ended up coming..but a little late...lol we are so similar. i enjoy her presence so much. it was nice just to sit with her...but i've noticed she has acted a bit weird around me since i had my break down at church 2 weeks ago. it was strange that she didn't even stay to check on me after i cryed so hard. she never checked on me for the remainder of that week. but im getting over people being weird around me..i guess what i'm learning Big Guy is not to really trust people. I trusted so many people to go out of their way for me because as Christians i thought they would follow Gods most important command. But WOW. i don't know how many do....i don't understand...why aren't people there? do they think my issue is...superficial? i don't get it. i honestly don't. Maybe Big Guy you will explain this to me one day..? I guess Mr.C set the bar really high...but he let me down as well...i guess he had to...but Big Guy....confusion....
anyway the sweet part about tonight was Kim's dad..we were leaving church and i went up to give him a hug and he said the following,
"you're special, you're kind, you're different girl...i mean that...and you're a pretty young thing!
we're prayin for you all the time...you are different...and kind. we love you so much girl and don't you forget it. we love you so much. come by anytime you need to talk, or cry, or just need someone to talk to"
oh, how i needed to hear that.