hiya baby!

just about to leave off now on our little tour of the south island, im going to pick up our van in a little while. like you darling it has been a s*** couple f days i hated lieing awake last night and just thinking about it and i just refuse to let it get to me because it was so hard at Rossall when i was next to you let alone half way round the world. i know there isnt and i know you love me more then anything but i was just suprised, like if you would have said Rob then i kinda would have guessed/understood but i dont really get the Toby thing. still your call. and that can be the end of it now anyway, it doesnt matter at all to me because i love you more then anything, like you said your the only thing i think about and i know how much your doing for me and it means so much to me so that and how i feel will alwyas outweigh anything else. and i do love you unconditionally just wish you could be with me instead but it will be soon darling i know. i havnt stopped thinking about you and i hope your ok, and you can be happy now dalring because i am and i love you more then anything and you will alwayus be on my mind and i need you so so much. i cant wait to call you and hear your voice again and be happy with you becuase i miss that so so much. cant wait to have you in my arms again. and its firstly you have a bf not he has a gf. lol its crazy, i hope it keeps happening because i want it to remind you of me- and i promise london will be incredible and so will the US! and dont be silly about uni darling the only thing im gonna do is work and see you anf think about you constantly dalring. dont you daer worry about that there is no1 in the world that is anything near you and how much i love you. you will always be my girl and you can be happy forever with me i promise! hope your feeling better today and i love you.

have a good day darling and get back to me.

need you in my life and always will

your baby

baby im so upset now!!! i just really miss u n wish u were here so i could show u how much i really care!!! since u left u have been on my mind constantly!! i wear ur ring everywhere i go without fail n i feel lost without it cos that is how i would feel without u!! i dont like these bad feelings between us and its silly cos we both love each other unconditionally!! im sorry for how i made u feel there is nothin between me n toby n never will be... firstly he has a gf n secondly i have a bf i love more than anythin n would do anythin for!!! ur all i think about, dream about and want!!! i hope u realise this cos on the phone u sounded really down n that is the last thing we need when we are already across the other side of the world from each other!!! i know this is hard sweetie but it will be over soon!!! these few days are gonna be hard for me i can tell... gonna start my period in a few days n am feelin really hormonal it must be the pill!! like last night i couldnt stop crying until i feel asleep n then i woke up bout 5 times in the night really upset!! hence why i sent the last message!! u know i think ur the most amazin person in the world and i would do anythin for u!! but i suppose thats evident when i work all the hours that god sends to come n see u n when u come back i will be travellin down to london pretty much every weekend i can to come n see u!!! am quite worried bout u goin to uni tho!! i dont want u to find anyone else!!that would absolutely break my heart especially after all this!! i tell u what im lookin forward to the most tho... london b4 u go to uni!!! just like old times!!that was amazin!!! i didnt get to tell u bout my dream... but guess i will tell u next time!! u know i said b4 everythin is remindin me of u... it really is is so weird!! everywhere i turn someone says london or is from london... nomes bf is from kent!! battersea was on the news n that was the first word i heard when i turned it on!!! it is just ridiculous now!!! hope these few weeks pass a little faster!!! love u so so much n hope this makes u feel better!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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i know it is the middle of the night ur time but just wanted to tell u that i love u so so much cos u dodnt call me this mornin so i couldnt tell u then!!! whenever u get this give me a call on my mobile whatever the time u know i want to hear from u!!! them if it is inconvenient maybe u can call back later or somethin but i just want to hear ur voice!!! i love u sweetie!!!! everythin is remindin me of u!!! cant take it anymore haha x anyway speak to u soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello baby! im safely in NZ and have been for a couple of hours now but i think its the dead of your night! guess what, even more time difference here, i think its 11 hours now which is great! haha but i will call you in the morning when you wake up because i miss you loads and want to hear your voice, it was lovely hearing you this morning i just wish it couldhhave been for longer, i hope you enjoyed your meal anyway- sounded like fun, wish i could have been there to be your escort! lol soon though darling! catnw wait until we are both in the same country again its going to be amazing! and i want to know this dream because i have had so many and they are all about making love to you ofr hours and hours, watching you moan and cum all night and never ever letting go of your sexy little body, never taking my eyes off of yours, except to see how damn sexy you are. i need you here now please baby i miss you lots. i cant wait until LA im so excited now you have booked the flights and stuff its all getting closer when i get more time i will email you the greyhound info and stuff and let you know about those hostels, i will prob get onto them tomorrow. oh baby! i have some pics to send you too my dalring. just for you. i cant wait to have you in my bed, in my arms, kissing you, being inside you again. missing you so much my baby. keep well. chat soon you cheeky girl.

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oh and safe journey!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

oh also baby i know its like midnight so if u havent called me by the time u get this tomorrow mornin ur time before u travel or after u arrive in NZ give me a ring no matter what time it is my time i would love to hear from u baby!!! ur my baby boy!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey sweetie i tried to write back earlier but was on my neighbours internet connection n it falied just as i went to send the message the page expired n i couldnt get the message back!!! boo!!! oh k isnt san fransisco north tho?? oh i dont know that will be cool anyway except it dodnt have that on the grey hound stops so u will need to let me know b4 i book them!!! i dont care if there are 7 or 107 more ppl in the room as long as i can lie with u n cuddle u!! i just hope it doesnt make alex feel really bad tho!!! do u friends think ur really in love?? random question i know but can they tell a difference to how u were with sophie n how u ae with me?? i have booked my flight to LA now n will book the grey hounds prob a week friday cos i will have enough money def in my bank then!!! then whatever i earn pretty much will be spends!!! i asked my dad today to chat to my mum bout whether or not we can stay in the house in phili... n he will get back to me soon!!! i love u so much baby!! n hope u call soon x love u with all my heart!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hiya sweetie. yer there is another hostel in san fran i think, that i have booked have the numbers with me so i should be able to get through to them. yer it would be nice to be in the same room i know. still they all f***ing suck because they are like 8 person rooms and they are just crap but as long as im sleeping with my baby it wont make a difference!! what your aunty said was nice, im glad she has, its nice having sum1 on your side but it didnt matter because i had my baby anyway and she is a star and she is amazing! yer book your flights first sweetie thats a good idea! i will give you a call later my little girly, cant wait to hold you. pictures too sweetie! like you havnt got enough to think about! love you my girly!

3 hostels?? one in LA, one in Flagstaff n where is the other?? yeah i understand darlin but it would be better if we were in the same room anyway!!! i am gettin the tax sorted out so i should have that back soon whcih is good!!! the weather is not great here either n i wish u were here so bad thats all im thinkin bout at the moment!!! well i will tell u the exact date i will book them but have to make sure i have the money in my bank first!!! but it may be worth me bookin my flights first cos they are the things that go up in price overtime!!! my auntie was just sayin that we will be together no matter what n just to let it be n do what makes me happy if the family are bein funny then i should just try my best to get on with them but dont make sacrfices for them at my expense!!! finally someone supported me it feels nice n now i have more will to try n make an effort with my mum n not argue!!! feels nice!! love u so much baby... hope ur enjoyin ur day!!! will do some more research n let u know bout it!! glad this is keepin me busy cos i hope time will pass faster this way x love u so so so much x ur amazin xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Heya sweetie! sounds like you have done alot of work you clever little bee! what did your aunt say about the family and us im curious! lol yer i will book hostles, there are 3 all together that im booked in, while im here i will try and callthem and sort out the rooms but to be honest baby it doesnt matter because either i will be in your bed or you will be in mine anyway we just have to pay for two ppl so it doesnt really matter if we are not in the same room if you get me. but i will try and get that sorted out, yer baby i trust your maths implicitly! sounds good, i will treat you to something nice when we are out there for the 50 quid then which will be lovely! i know but dont take that crap off the taxman tell him to f*** off and claim it back, your still in full time education, its worth filling out a for and getting the money back, thats what nikki had to do for like 3 years! yer it would be great if we could go up to philli and stay there i hope that we can, should be really good, nice to see James and Becky too. the weather here is s*** darling and i was at the cinema last night and i just wanted you next to me so i could hold your handand kiss you. your always on my mind cutie and i love you somuch. cant wait till america-i will get those hostels sorted out and it will be class, let me know when your gonna book the greyhounds and i will get alex and dave to do them too. i miss ou so much baby, try and send me some pictures.thank you baby!love you so much will chat to you soon, prob call you tomorrow.

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oh n one more thing then i will leave u alone i promise!! firstly i love u so so much!!! but not just that the hostel room should be booked n then i should contact them n ask them to be put in the same room!!! that is as long as i book the same type of room n they are not that busy!!! ok thanks baby!!! love u to bits xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx