oh baby i cant wait to talk to u tomorrow it has been all systems go today cos it is our last day in this country!!! it has been really upsettin mum is stressed n is shoutin at everyone i have to work this afternoon so am gettin told off for leavin n not helpin x n news has come through from wilbur n becky is def not stayin n is goin to america so everyone is upset today n stressed except me cos i dont know how to feel emotion at the moment!! when u are not here i am constantly upset so it makes no difference to me although i feel really sorry for becky x look forward to talkin to u tomorrow darlin stay safe x love u so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hope u can write to me soon baby have alot to discuss n i miss u!!! hope ur safe x love u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

its me again!! just o tell u that i miss u so much!!! it is gettin so much harder now as u have been away so long... i wonder what it will fell like when i see u again!! i dreamt about it last night it was amazin!! oh just to clarify i booked us into a hotel rather than a hostel cos the hostel double rooms were fully booked just incase u were wondering why i had done somethin as stupid as that!! write back to me soon sweetie cos i miss u so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx love u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

ok i assessed the situation darlin n we dont have enough money to be spendin willy nilly... so what i have done is i have booked us into a hotel the night we arrive in LA n then we are int he hostel the followin night so all u need to do is cancel ur bookin for the 31st of july!! then i emailed the hostel n asked them to put me in the same room as u but im sure they will let me know sooner or later whether or not that is possible!! the hotel i booked us into is an airport one cos neither of us will want to travel then will we!! just thought i would update u n will leave another blog later!! love u so much sweetie not long now!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey dreamer!

ow i thought it was only 31 days today that sucks i was having my owm little count down! sorry about not calling you the other day sweetie i tried but i couldnt find a phone, well i found a couple and my card didnt work on them but i asked sum1 and i know where to go now so you will be hearing from me very very soon you cheeky girly! cant wait to talk to you now! they will never be as good as you were as head girl you rocked sweetie! im so proud of you! haha! always, and trust me room service will have a tough job because i refuse to leave the room in florida i will have far too much to do and too much to catch up on! ow sweetie like you said its not long now! its ok about money we will always get along, you know us. it doesnt make any difference as long as we are together! snowboarding is so fun! i will take you one day soon i promise, i have so many things i want to do with you now, thought about you all day again, and i love it! love you with all my heart you pretty little girl and i always will!

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was hopin so much i would be hearin from u today cos i miss u so bad!! but i understand that ur snowboarding n busy so i wont bug u!! i went and sat in our place today n listened to the james morrison CD cos it reminds me of u!! maybe cos u bought it n we listened to it all the time when we were in the car together!! i am exhausted today cos i slept out last night and rushed home really early this mornin in case u rang n u didnt!! poor form baby boy!! hehe but i will forgive u just about i think!! had this woman in work this mornin that looked n acted just like ur mum was funny!! anyway will go now got work again soon!! call me whenever u get this regardless of the time i want to talk to u!! love u with all my heart!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx be safe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

it is 36 days today i think but at least we are gettin closer n closer now!!! i just want to hold u again cos i miss u so so much!!! i get to the point where i just dont want to do anythin if ur not by my side!! cant wait to hear from u again but remember i have work so it needs to be at a good time!!! i slept in till 1.30 today!!! bad girl!! ready n jenny cooper are head boy n head girl cos i had to take my jacket in so jenny can wear it for a week or so!!! had a bad dream boutmy results last night so im gettin anxious already i can tell!!! wish u could be here when i get them would make me so happy!!! miss u with all my heart n need u here!! oh poor little baby in a van... wish u were in my bed i would welcome u with open arms!! oooh snowboarding how exciting im so jealous of u at the mo!! lucky boy!! i wont have as much money as i hoped either for LA cos im not gettin as many hours now!!! but oh well cos we both dont have enough money for food we will have to feed off our love for each other!! i am gonna have to start trainin myself to not eat as much... then i wont be as hungry!! plus when we get to florida i will be happy not leavin the room at all!!! hehe x god it seems so far off n so long ago we could do that!!1 oh well not long now darlin!! love u so so much x look forward to our chat!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey sutie i miss you so much i just thought i would let you know again. its so hard but every day is closer to you i think its only 33 more now. ah i cant wait to hold you again. have so many dreams i need to relive! love you

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hey sweetie, sorry i havnt been able to be on here that much i havnt seen much internet in my little van, and we have been sleeping there and stuff for the last couple of nights or so. but its all good darling at a hostel now in this place in the south island called queenstown, going snowboarding tomorrow for a couple of days which i am really looking forward to, and i asked dad for some money yesterday so i should be getting that soon, i think i might have gone into an overdraft but i cant check my account balance so i dnt really know! still if my dad sends me money its all good! yer i love talking to you baby, the last time we chatted was so nice on the phone it made me miss you loads though, and when you say you like to hear how much i need you, baby i dont go a minuet without thinking about you or wishing i could just hold you against me and kiss you for hours, which is exactly what im going to do when i get my hands on you! that evening sounded like a mare with the ring and stuff baby, but its nice to see how much stuff like taht means to you and im so glad you keep me with you. i never stop thinking about you being by my side! i had a great dream about you last night, it was the first night we had together after all this time and we were in a hotel and it felt so good to touch you and kiss you and play with you all night. lol i will have to tell you about it because it was a really nice dream, had a hard on for about an hours after i woke up though! naughty no name, still he is being a good boy for you dont worry, he cant wait to see his love again! good news about rob. i will try and call you tomorrow darling when i find a phone, i will call you in the morning you timr again if your at your nans thats cool! missing you like crazy baby, cant wait to come back to you and see your gorgeous face at the airport! ah baby! i love you too more then anything in the world, so never forget it my little cutie. mwah mwah. your always on my mind.

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oh i wish i had a comment from u on here now!!! but then hopefully u will be callin me soon then i miss u so bad n just want u here with me now!! if u get this im not workin on monday so if u could call then it would be brill!!! love u so so so much its untrue!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i hope u can call me soon baby had such a bad night last night n need to talk to u!!! i had a nice dream tho but it didnt quite make up for it!!! was hopin to have a reply on here from u so at least i felt like i had kinda spoke to u but i understand that ur busy!!! hope u can get back to me soon!!! i have work today all day which sucks but hopefully i can chat to u tomorrow or somethin... or maybe later for me which is tomorrow ur time!!! love u more than anythin... n i would give the world just to feel u once more and look into ur eyes n give u a kiss!!! come back to me now!! :( speak to u soon anyway baby boy!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

oh baby... i am happy now!!! i just like to hear every so often that u need me, cos i need u so so much its untrue!! i felt really ill these past few days n started my period yesterday which wasnt fun!!!when do u think we will next be able to talk on the phone?? can i send that phone to austin??? cos its buggin me not bein able to chat to u readily.. n like on ur bday i cant call u to say happy birthday or anythin!!! oh and some other news me n rob arent talkin anymore... we decided it was best for the both of us!!! we will still be civil when we see each other but we just wont meet up intentionally or chat on the phone... we kinda realised there was just no need!! i have moved on n it is time he does too!! only workin one shift today baby which is good cos im tired n not welll n then have the hockey presentation night tonight!!! i am happy now i have heard from u!!! drive safe baby boy... n i hope we can chat soon cos i miss u more than ever!!! love u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx