2 March 2014

Hi y'all (some Bluebell-accent from Hart of Dixie that I'm watching these days, a lot).

Okey, I'm going to say it just out loud, to-the-point, strait forward… Without any adjustments that turn around the subject… Like now…I broke up… After 4,5 years… That's such a long and incredible time… First I thought I could not breathe anymore but here I am, still alive, 2 days later… It was a sad agreement (over Skype) of our both so no hard(er) feelings… But it made me stay in a weird place right now. A lot of feelings, but I don't know how to express them in good words so I will leave it now in this way. I try to work things out. Besides, I'm putting my energy in some other person's life, the life of Zoe Hart. Yes, I may be obsessed with Hart of Dixie, but it seems to be the right thing for now. She has a lot of going on at Bluebell and her social life so I can get away from mine. Untill I know how to deal with "mine situation", because I never had a break up with a first love before. Why can Caramanico not be such a great little town as Bluebell? Okey, I get it! Bluebell is not real, whatever… I know that. But a little bit of spicy-ness and arrangements have to be possible right? Bluebell-people are proud and want to share and celebrate festivities with each other. Caramanico-people do have the same thing right? How can this town be so boring… Seriously, what are all these people doing? Waiting for summer to come? So tourists can arrange all the fun? Well that's lame, because this town deserves a little fun (besides karaoke-night on Friday)!!

Well my working is quiet at the time. I did what I had to do (Excell, the data programme, QGIS) I did it all. So I'm curious what's next! Bring it on!! It is almost a month that I live here and it still feels I arrived here yesterday, will that change anytime soon? I hope so. Because I'm 21, living on the top of my life and I'm awesome!! (I say that a lot these days, it helps me so don't judge). I need distraction. I need big things… I need people… Luna is great, but I want to go out a little at night, you know? Luna is getting stubborn and has more local friends here than me, so her social life is busier than mine so she does not always have the time to hang out with me… That's sad, I may be jealous on a dog… Waow Roos, you are really don't know how to handle your life right now. Well, March has arrived so in a view weeks reproductive-season will start so maybe some spicy-ness in nature will come. For now, I will live on the basic level. Sleep, eat, do something, go outside, eat and sleep. Time will heal right? That's what they say.