Christmas is just around the corner and here at the house there is sure alot of hussle and bustle. Gifts are coming in from everywhere and everyone!! The kids are in gift and candy heaven!!
I decided this year I was going to spend the holidays with my new family. It did not feel right to leave the kids, whom I have developed a deep bond with. Kids who have no other family right now but us. I also knew that it was going be a very different kind of Christmas, one filled with a different kind of busyness. I am not out shopping for gifts, but giving out gift ideas and sizes for other people who want to shop for our kids. Very different perspective. This year I can not afford gifts for anyone, but watch as they are still provided. But seeing all of this, I realize that at the end of the day for all of us, the most important thing is the people that surround us. People we call family and friends. Whatever that may look like in our lives.
I recently received a visit from my parents, who I will not be able to be with during the holidays. It was so good to see them and for them to be a part of who I am here for a few days. But it also brought to my memory the times with my family during the holidays and our family traditions that I have grown to appreciate. Like the day we put up the tree and play Christmas songs all day. Or how my dad reads the Christmas story on Christmas eve before we open gifts and the grandkids sit at his feet like I used to as a child. Or how all of us girls make Christmas treats with my mom for all of their families, during which there is so much laughter. There have been times when I have not been able to make it home for Christmas and the times that I have, all of those things have been recreated. But this year, I have the chance to spend it with kids who have no other family and look to me as their family. And I am realizing how I have taken all those years for granted. During the time my parents where here, my new family was joined with my biological family and I realized that all that matters is that you are surrounded with people that you love love and love you. It is not about the gifts. It is not about trying to recreate special memories. It is not about old traditions. It is about appreciating where God has me right now and giving to the fullest. Making new memories and new traditions. And learning what love is truly about.
I pray that each of you enjoy your Christmas this year.