i am so paranoid today i dreamt about sophie n now i cant get the idea out of my head!!! n to make matters worse she is on facebook n she came up on my screen last night how bad is that... like it is tryin to tell me somethin!!! i feel like crap today n also she has birthday pics up with u on there n that made me feel even crappier!!! then to make matters worse i saw her birthday was on the 19th of December so u went to her birthday party whilst u were with me n i was in america!!! this broke my heart cos u told me that she had it a while before u went back to rossall so u didnt miss it but u were there for her birthday!! also she added them on the 26th of december n if u wernt together anymore n u had told her that why would she still put the pics up there?? suely she would be too upset to do so!!! tell me there is an explanation for all this... n it is not the case that u lied to me!!! please write back soon cos im going out of my mind n i hate feelin like this!!! ring me if u can!! x the last thing i need now is to think all this crap as well as missin u awefully!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

oh baby i am so glad u sent this message n i have got it before i go to sleep!!! i have been paranoid all night because of the way u were actin on the phone cos u sounded so calm n not really missin me at all!! i am really pleased to hear u say all these things cos it is exactly how i feel... i miss u so much n everythin is gettin really hard without u x just want time to pass by a little faster now bt hopefully facebook will do that for me hehe x i will type to u again in the morning my time in time for when u wake up tomorrow x but before i sleep i just wanted to tell u again that i love u so so much n wish that u could e here to kiss me goodnight x but u will be in 2 weeks so i have that to look forward to!! ur adorable n i cant wait to spend the rest of ym life with u my sweetheart xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hiya baby!

Just got off the phone to you and had to go to a cafe because i didnt thinki told you just how much you mean to me. and i know its hard now darling because its getting towards the end and i just want to be with you and its impossible to remember what it feels like to hold you again but darling it will be like nothing you have felt before and you are my shining star and i live my life for you, even when im across the world seeing new things your the only thing i can think about and your the one girls hand i want to hold and do everything with. and i cant wait until i can do it with you in US and you will show me what travelings about because your a f***ing babe and i cant wait to hold you in my arms and lay you on a bed, and just look at your gorgeous body and kiss you, take your clothes off and make love to you, whislt never stopping looking into your eyes and kissing you, telling you how much i love you. i cant wait to be there with you in that hotel room and i cant wait to make you moan for me all night, so you no longer have to dream about anything and you can have my mouth on you wherever you want for as long as you want. i need you so much katie i miss you so bad. I cant wait to see you at the airport im gonna be so nervous and i just think its going to be so exciting again and i cant wait to be with you. baby i miss you so much. with all my heart. your my angel and i want you to know that i love you so much and i cant believe that every day when i wake up how bad i miss you and how much then every morning i realise i love you and never want to be apart from you. i hope you get this before you sleep my darling. Thank you so much for helping us out in Philli too baby i realise you are going out your way and the boys appreciate it. Your a gem baby and i cant wait to be with you again. I will be everything you want and everything you will ever need angel, and i cant wait to dedicate the rest of my life to you. Love you so much.

Your boy.

oh by the way the hostel is £11.31 per night each n they will find it easily on the web as it is the only one like i said!! love u again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx n again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

ok just been checkin out the prices n i dont know how long u want to stay with me for but say it is 6 days from the 14th to the 20th it will cost the boys around $500 to stay in the hotel between them so like £125 each n i didnt know if they could afford this! so i went n looked for hostels but there are non in the Lancaster area!! the closest one to here is in phili so if they wanted they could stay there for half the time n then if i was on the car insurance i would pick them up n then they could stay in the hotel for half the time for like £70 each. i dont know if this is what they or u want to do n i understand that u have come travellin with them so dont blame u if u dont want to stay with me for as long x but whatever they decide they need to book it soon as there is limited availability in both the hotels n hostels as there is only one hostel in phili n the hotel prices are risin fast. The name of the hotel that i looked up was the Days Inn Lancaster (30 Keller Avenue Lancaster PA 17601.) This should give u some reasonable prices n it is in a good area for me.

On to other news... i had a real cafuffle this mornin with school n my only subject that was anywhere near the grade above was my history n i got a 5 in that!! but at the moment it is a possibility that i will be gettin them all remarked just to see how it goes!! u never know!! am a bit annoyed n dont want to do retakes so this is what i plan to do for now n see how or if it changes.

Most important news... i love u with all my heart n miss u so much. i cannot wait to see u in LA it is gonna be so good. Only 15 days now! yey x want to feel ur skin against mine again!!! i love u n always will x hope ur ok n can write back to this some tiem today xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey cutie glad to know ur safe cos i love u so much!! i cant wait to talk to u tonight i know its crazy how little time we have left yet it seems so long as well!! im glad to hear ur havin such a good time sweetie btu i can promise u it will be better when u get to me... i will show u what travellin is all bout!!! it just seems so weird... feels like this is how our relationship will always be!!! it is gettin harder as we reach the finishin line cos i am startin to realise how long we have been away from each other n just how much i miss u!!! but it is going to be fantastic when we see each other n we can talk bout what u have done n what our future plans are together!!! yey x im not gettin sun stroke now darlin am bein good stayed out of the sun all day yesterday to give myslef a breather!! also i made a friend yesterday which was nice she lives across the road n is my age... is a bit of a music geek but a really nice girl!!! i will be thinkin of u all day like always n wishin every second that u were by my side cutie x love u so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hiya baby! just thought i would drop you a line to let you know im good and stuff! you will be sleeping now hopefully having another nights dreams about when i get my hands on you again, i hope so because it will be so much better then you can imagine darling i cant wait to have you again! its going to be crazy! lol its only 16 days now! how good is that! i cant beleive it, its so soon! im excited! haha just been driving round the north coast of NZ and heading to hamilton in a bit, then to aukland, then fiji and then my babys arms. hope your good and looking after yourself and not getting sun stroke you silyl girly! its been quite nice and warm up here, been playing rugby like all day in a park which was cool! your the only thing in my head baby and thats how i intend to keep it, thats the way i love it and you cant stop me! haha! sleep tight my darling i will talk to you in your evening! hope your ok my angel.

sleep tight

mwah

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am waitin for u to call sweetie hope it is soon cos i am missin u plus we are havin people round soon x have missed u so much today u have actually not left my mind!!! cannot wait to see u x hope ur safe sweetie xxxxx love u with all my heart xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey darlin just got up now a bit later today cos i felt like i needed my sleep dreamt bout u all night which was amazin will tell u how it was later!! i am ok now think i have got over my jet lag just wish i could have spoken to u for longer n spoke to u properly bout everythin without me bein half asleep as well hehe!!! think i have sun stroke darlin hehe i was out n about n got sunburnt silly me!! love u so much tho so i would get through it x cant believe its only 2 weeks n a half now i cannot wait!! speak soon darlin its what i live for xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey darling, i like your messages lots, its like a run down of your day! i just talked to you and you were so sleepy, and that newsis so so good i hoped it would be that i got my hopes up for that and its so good! im chuffed! i cant wait to come and see you now darling! it must be crazy for you time zone wise you must be knackered! wish i was there holding you just watching you sleep giving you a kiss every now and again and whispering i love you! ah dalring i miss you so much cant wait to talk to you tomorrow properly (hopefully i will have some money to do it!) ah its getting so close now baby! you will be happy with me what with all my oranges and i have been doing workouts and stuff so i wont be a blob for when you see me! cant wait now my darling! so close! thank you for the run, i adore you, i will show you how much very soon! 18days! wow! PICTURES! haha

Miss you my darling.

sleep tight. sweet dreams!

am goin to sleep now cheeky but if u come on here write back n let me know that ur safe!!! maybe u could call tomorrow u name the time but maybe just call my mobile first!!! i love u so much n have desperately tried to talk to u today but it has not been so!!! hope we can chat soon stay safe dreamer!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

whenever u get this darlin call me!!! obviously not if it is the middle of the night but im sure u can suss that out ur a bright lad!! want to speak to u now i love u so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx missin u real bad today cos have benn waitin to talk to u but no such luck as of yet xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx