i know u havent read the other messages yet but i really needed to let u know how much i love u n how i cant wait to put my hands on u again!! i think that u are an incredible person... n i am so glad to have u in my life!! hope u are havin a fantastic time in fiji n wish i was there but almost time now hey darlin!!! oooh when i get my hands on u x i will dream of u sweetie dont worry x love u darlin n always will xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

just looked baby n it was right we are 16 hours apart still so i dont know whats happenin maybe it just took a while for this to be put on?? so u blogged me at around 3pm on ur birthday?? x cos thats why i was worried i made allowances for u not bein able to get hold of me on the phone but was really worried when u didnt even blog!!! must be this thing x so glad ur ok u are my life n dont know what i would do without u x ur amazin n i hope u feel the same way bout me xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

even though u couldnt speak to me on ur birthday im just happy to know ur safe!!! i dont understand darlin the time differences must be wrong cos i kept wakin up in the night n checkin this cos i was worried bout u n it didnt have anythin on it!!! n 3 in the afternoon is bout 11 at night for me n the thing says i recieved the message today i am gonna have to recheck this time business cos once again i am confused!!! dont worry if u cant get a card darlin i will arrange to get one here n call the hotel phone or somethin if u can give me a number n a time!!! it might not work but its worth a try!! u have a good birthday?? what did u get up to?? yeah i recovered but i tell u i have never felt so drunk in my entire life... not that night but in the mornin...i couldnt stand up!!! ended up gettin up at lunch time n lyin around all day was aweful!! i was just havin a drink or 10 to celebrate ur birthday for u thats all!! hope we can chat soon cos i miss u x but only 8 days to go!!! i love u with all my heart my sexy 19 year old hunk x hehe im weird i know x talk to u soon sweetie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hiya sweetie.

sorry i havnt been able to call you, the phone card here doesnt work and i cant get hold of a phone card, the people here dont have any, i have been trying to get one all day but nowhere has them. found this internet place though, i dont think you will check today, but thank you for wishing me happy birthday i got it! and i hope your day is good and you have recovered from your drunkeness! lol, its about 3 in the afternoon here so i guess yuor going to be soon, but just so you know i have been thinking bout you all day and last night was agony without you, just wish i could wake up next to you. i will try and get a card again tomorrow and call you then, hopefully it will work my angel. im sorry about noy being able to get to you, just glad i found this place. i love you so much and your always in my mind! especially today. wish you were here bad!

Sleep tight and i will chat to you in the morning, cant check my email here but i will do soon. miss you my angel. cant wait!

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u havent got back to me yet sweetie n i am kinda worried bout u but i thought that i should def come on here anyway n wish u a very happy birthday n i hope u are really enjoyin bein 19 years old whoop whoop!! i am gutted that i wont be able to talk to u on ur birthday cos it really means alot to me but i understand u will be busy just hope ur safe really!! i love u so much n i guess i will talk to u whenever u have a minute!! enjoy tonight u deserve a good celebration x ps i left u somethin in ur email inbox x love u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i am so glad u spoke to me i am so drunk tonight!!! but still still learnt so much much from this x sorry if it doesnt make sense x but i was talkin tonight to a guy from my dads work that is completely in love with his wife n he makes me feel so in love will write to u in the mornin !!!! love u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hiya gorgeous! you knoe me so well of corse imgoing to get to you before i go! dalring thank you so much for those last two messages, i love reading stuff like that, and baby you will always have me there to brighten up everything in your life and no hurdle will ever be too much for us because we can always rely on each other to be there and thats the most special thing about us that we can just know that the other person will always be there, and im never going to leave your side or ever stop holding your hand once i have it again! miss you so bad darling and im so proud of you and what we have and thikn its incredible and your incredible and that i cant wait until i can show you how much i appreciate you being in my life angel. and your f***ing gorgeous so what more can a man ask for! eudi is a star and i knew she would pull through she has something incredible waiting for her in LA so she wouldnt want to miss that! lol im in the airport now and the flight has been cancelled until 6pm so have loads of time and i dont know what to do with it. obviously im going to find a seat and think about you and what im going to do to you, and how much i cant wait to feel your tongue run over me and your hands explore every part of me! its going to be incredible and baby my hands, my tongue, my lips, noname will caress inbetween your legs soon darling and they are going to adore it.

i adore you baby and i cant wait to get to fiji so that my next place will be by your side! and i cant wait to talk to you. i hope you get this before bed! miss you so much angel and i hope you get another shower dream. cant wait to be with you again.

yours forever cheeky. dont you forget it!

i am hopin by the fact that u havent blogged yet that u are gonna do it before u leave which is good cos i didnt want to miss u!!! it was so nice talkin to u again but i just bout have enough time to tell u i love u n miss u n look forward to seeing u soon then we dont get to chat bout ordinary things like we normally do x like today i went to the driving range i will def go with u when u get here!!! that will be really nice!!! i am quite bad but not as bad as i remember on the plus side x i want to wish u a safe n happy flight if they exist but like u said it is only short so it is not too bad for u!!! it is the flight from Fiji to LA that i feel sorry for u x but u will meet me at the other end n i will give u the biggest welcome ever!!! only 10 days to go who could believe it!! before i go i just want to let u know that i think u are such an incredible person n u really light up my life... i just sit sometimes n wonder what my life would be like if u wernt in it, then i realise... it would be like it was before i met u!! i felt worthless unhappy n didnt know what to do to make my life better again!! everyday i woke up feeling depressed until i met u n it changed my life around x now no matter what goes wrong as long as i have u i feel i can tackle any bad situation with u by my side, which is something i never thought possible x u are my everything n i cant wait to see ur handsome face again x hope u enjoyed the rugby my sweet n fly safely!!! will chat to u on ur birthday then i guess x all my love forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i love waking up and having a message off u it means so much to me!! especially messages like that cos how could a girl be any happier when she knows that the person she adores n lives for completely reciprocates her feelings. i am glad to hear bout sophie n to be honest i think this will be the end of my fretting... i think it is time for us both to just be happy with what we have together n enjoy life rather than worrying about what could happen cos we are perfect for each other n it doesnt matter who else is in our lives we will always be together!! also good news eudi made me happy this mornin cos she was poorly!!! yey x so that means she should be better with about a week to go!!! way to go eudi!! hehe x another thing that is makin me happy today is that i will be talkin to u tonight it is just the best news ever!! love u so so much x i hope u are dreamin of me now cos i did of u... we arrived in LA n said u needed a shower!! i decided that was a good idea n joined u (i think u can tell where this story goes!!) ur incredible x i cant wait until that feelings of ur hands between my legs is reality x have sweet dreams and i will speak to u later my sweetness xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hello baby! i told you i would check today and thank you for your message its really nice and like you said earlier its so nice to hear you say stuff like that because its how you feel every second of everyday and i miss you and being with you so much, just having you in my arms again will be the best thing in my life and i could never imagine how much i would miss you and how much i would feel for you and i never thought i would feel so strongly about someone that i could be apart from them for so long and nothing but them would enter my head and i love it and like you said im so proud the we have done it and if we can do this baby think how perfect the rest of our lives will be! They are going to be incredible and i cant wait to go to philli and it will be cool with James there and i cant wait to see your house and be with you in it again its going to be wicked, just to hold your hand and be the perfect couple again! ahh sweetie i cant wait. love you so much. and darling please dont think there is anything between me and sophie, because since the day i lay my eyes on you there has never been anyone else in my life and never will be and we dont talk to each other anymore at all, we wont be living anywhere near each other and there will be absolutely nothing, not even a friendship, between us. I have never thought about, or missed her at all, i dont miss anything about her because i have something that is more special to me then i could ever imagine and i love so much more then i could think was possible. Katie my angel you have opened my eyes to whaat two people can be like together and i will never let you go or ever be as stupid to do anything that would ever let you down. your my baby and its nearly 10days till i see you and make love to you.

Katie i love you with all my heart and i hope you know how much it means to me when i say that. Its not just a throwaway statement i mean it with everything that i am.

and you will always be my girly.

Love you my sweetheart so much, have a good day and know that you will be making me so so happy in my dreams.

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hey baby just spoke to u on the phone n i am so happy now!!! im sorry for puttin a downer on the phone call but i just needed to sort it out in my head is always a shock seein a pic of ur bf with his ex n his arm around her but i dont mind i understand sweetie just wanted to know what it was all bout!! it was so nice to just chat to u like we have always been together n have not been apart for like 3 n a half months x it has gone quite fast when i look at how much i remember leavin u at the airport but then it seems like ages as well if u know what i mean x i hope these few days go fast i know u shouldnt wish ur life away but i just know that when i see u it will be the most incredible feelin ever!!! n i just keep thinkin how great it was after just 3 weeks!!! it is so close now... actually so close it is unbelievable n every day that goes by the feelings will just get stronger n stronger!! good news as well which i forget to tell u is that james is here for an extra night so we will all get a night together maybe go out for a meal or somethin?? n play on the many games we have in our house cant wait for u to see it will be so much more excitin with u here!! i just keep thinkin how much has changed in both ours lives since u left n how much we ahve both been through apart but then at the same time we have still stayed together despite our serverley differing lifestyles x i am so proud of what we have achieved n just feel so lucky to have found u!!! i really do love u so much n i hope u realise how many feelings there are behind that comment!!! u be safe and i look forward to speakin to u again tomorrow ur what i live for xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i cant get u out of my head!!! i dont want u to think i am accusin u of somethin but u know u would suspect if it was the other way round... n u never have been brutally honest with her n have kinda tiptoed around her to let her down gently!! n not sayin that is bad of u but it kinda makes things awkward for me cos i dont know where u 2 stand x u say to me that u are not speakin anymore yet u do... u tell me that u dont text her or ring her anymore but then i see ur messages on ur phone!!! i know that was a while ago n it would have been harder for u at the beginning to set her straight but do u not think it is time to do so?? since me n rob said we wernt talkin we havent n that makes sense n u can feel at ease now btu i still cant with u n sophie!!! i know u hardly speak now cos ur travellin but what about when u go to uni?? u are in the same halls as she is in!!! then what?? im not there u start talkin again n i get forgotton bout!! i dont want to accuse u of anythin but i just want to let u know how i feel cos it is really buggin me n puttin me in a really bad mood!!! n like i said in the last message that thing with the birthday is playin on my mind!!! please put my mind at ease or just tell me the truth bout it all n tell me how u really feel bout her if there is anythin at all!!! i really love u n it is gettin harder n harder now n that is why it is gettin to me especially i think x just please contact me as soon as u get these x thanks darlin xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx