It is another day here in Chicago. I am looking at the Calendar and now realize I have been here the better part of a year. When I first drove away from Mountain Home, I had no idea how long I would be gone, what I would be doing, or why I would be doing it. I still don't know the answer to those questions. This is like one very long adventure I will look back on at some point like a brief memory as if it had lasted only seconds. Now what is a huge cumulus cloud will become the faint trace of cigarette smoke teasing the airwaves as it dissipates into nothing.
On the quest for learning and pushing life to new limits I am learning more and more as time goes on. I recently found out a man's brain is not fully developed until he is 25 (go ahead research it). This gives me great hope. I haven't even had full brain power for barely a year yet, so the best is yet to come! I'm starting to understand my desires more, what they mean, what I can do about them, and how to proceed in life. It is very hard to stop and honestly ask yourself questions, especially when aimed directly at the heart. So do this little exercise with me for a second, a moment of brutal honesty, of searing truth unfiltered by shame, embarrassment, self-image, or confidence. If you are in a period of hollowness feeling empty, like a seashell with no occupant who makes non-stop noise of the ocean, yet lies on the beach motionless waiting for a chance to return to the salty sea. Think upon your heart not as an organ but another brain, not controlling functions but rather the epicenter of emotion and decision, the super computer of love, anger, resentment, and grief. Ask your heart "What do you want?"
What does it say and what are you going to do about it?
More to come....
DH- The Adventure Junkie