Im happy Emma and I gave three boys names "Bob", "Marley" and "Steven". And they are so cute and clever. Bob hahahahaaaa... said "paper scissors rock" to "paper scissors f***" and "goodbye"to "boodbye". Oh my god. SO SO CUTE!!:D And theyll be in TURTLE class. TURTLE, BOB MARLEY, I feel this gonna be amazing as well!!:)

Too much sacrifice. TOO MUCH. I was told not to take part in the speech competition which I always want to attend for a long time. I get really upset, a little pissed actually. Stupid STUDENT UNION. I have given up so many things and Im keeping giving up just because Im a part of it. I have no choice but to accept. Its too complicated. I know I can just swallow my tears. But if I see things in a different way, does that mean my super thought I would win the speech competition?:D To be honest, I really want to stand on that stage to deliver a speech. Im always the audience. The face makes me wanna cry. Ok, forget about it. If you lose sth, you must gain sth somewhere else. The feeling still pierce my heart. Hope Emmas music can send me to some beautiful dreams peacefully. Ill go through it. Im used to giving up things I dont want to give up. Ill be fine.

I talked to Lucy. Tristan said sth to Freda. I feel bad becauce I introduce Lucy to ALL YOUNG. Fortunately, shes fine. I toid her if she needs help I will be there. Everyone needs time to get familiar. What Tristan did could do nothing but make her more self-conscious.

Last Monday. A group of people from North Dakota. They are so kind. I talked to a lady and a man. They are retired teacher. They gave me 2 suvenir coins and their Emails. They said I could visit them if I went to US. So sweet of them. It was a shame I couldnt understand their stories. Ill look up on the Internet.

Have to return the dorm. Good night to myself:)