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We are like apples. We go through life shredding the bulk of our body off, leaving a trail of where we have been, only to reveal the core of our existence. The core to the apple holds the few necessities that manage the apple, the stem for nurturing, and the seeds for reproduction. As human beings, or even more intimate, as for myself, I walk through life and the clutter and pollution it offers attaches itself so easily, that for most people will mask them for their entire life. I would be dishonest to say i don't have this pollution, but i have managed my existence in a way, which took twenty years to master, that i know my core. Some days i try to ignore it, the pressure of my ambition makes me sick to my stomach, and I want to vomit from the level of my passions. This may seem odd or confusing, but this is nothing more than the simple truth of who i am. I lost my attachment to my current life years ago. I am now trapped in a temporary period of simply trying to survive and make it to the place that'll complete in its fullness who i am and why i was placed on this planet. Not a moment passes when I don't feel every cell in my body tense with pressure from my longings to leave; this reminds me daily what I am working for. I don't wish for money, nice belongings, or beauty… but a comfortable mind would satisfy me. I can't picture my future, no matter how hard I try… I never have been able to. I just know the things I am not, which paints the direction of my future, which alone fuels my blood to push on, full force.
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