Noosa is a fantastic place. Being here has been quite relaxing and I made the right choice to get off the bus to stay here for a few days for multiple reasons...
Cameron and his lady friend Sally have been excellent hosts, and whereever I end up I hope one day I can extend the same hospitality to them.
I haven't seen my friend John and his family since that night, butI can tell you that whoever that guy was he was spot on with his thinking...and he was correct I have recieved some closure for myself being here, positive closure, that I can keep moving forward in the direction in which I need to. I had my interview for the english program, and I did get in to the program! Not only did I actually enjoy the interview...but somehow I got the entire exam correct..she went over each answer and said that I have language awareness skills. After the last job I had...I must say, to boost my ego a bit, it was soooo nice hearing a compliment from someone. She went on to talk about the grading, and how intense it would be...I'm so ready to be challenged in that way again.
I thought about what that guy john said...whats the purpose? really ask yourself why? and when this woman asked me, "why do you want to do this?" My answer was quite sincere. For the first time in a long time, it wasn't about money, it wasn't about trying to impress anyone, it wasn't about what will grandpa think, will he think its stupid,.....it was all about me, and how I feel I can make a difference and help people. Learning a language is really difficult, once you have the skills to communicate your entire life can change. Even if you speak english....I can't think of the countless times I have misunderstood people, taken it personally and crossed them off before really understanding. My job will entail teaching adults how to communicate effectively, so they can get better jobs, and have a chance at quality of life...I find that to be very rewarding...and while it may not be my full time gig, it is something that seems to really fit for me and who I have become to be without the influence of anyone else....
Waking up every morning here, going to the ocean, and doing these runs have left me feeling healthier then I have in years. Ben and I did a run yesterday that was so ridiculously beautiful through the national park, all dirt and sand, and rocks...these little trails. I was in front of him, turned around and said...Im not gonna check on you for a bit, just wanna take it all in, he gave me a nod, and we ran for 3 miles of it in silence. I could hear him behind me, but I was totally relaxed, flying through the trees...the high was incredible, i didnt want it to end. After we went for a swim in the ocean....I have gotten seriously beaten up by the waves, but I love it just the same...I was walking back to my towel, and the next thing I knew i was tumbling under the water, being dragged around. First I looked for my top...which wasn't there, then I grabbed my bottoms...Ben being the gentleman that he is...first asked if I was ok...then handed me my top laughing hysterically...HAHA! The undertow took me down twice, picking me up and throwing me down...I decided it was time for a new bikini...as mine are from a few years ago. The sizes here are different, so when I walked into Billabong, I asked the young surfer guy about the sizes, I picked one up, he grabbed it from me saying "that will be totally massive on you.., try this." I told him my bottom was larger then my top, apparently I was very wrong. as I hung out of the dressing room, I asked him to bring me a larger top please, he looked at me smiled and said "totally awesome, larger top." and chuckled to himself. I must have shot him a look, cause on his way back, with his head down...he goes "sorry, sorry, sorrry"...AH HAHAHAHAHA! I have just seriously enjoyed the freedom here, and how great the people are, relaxed, and just really friendly. Its a great vibe....finding the balance between being able to do the sport and activity and quality of life plus job, would be ideal...compromise yes, but figuring out where you fit and what works for is more difficult.
Ben brought his guitar to the beach last night to play, and we ended up with a group of 20 people, all singing, hanging out, was a lot of fun. I got to talk to my friends in Italy last night as well. My italian is sooo bad, it's almost as if I never went to school, always have to practice. Italy is everywhere here...everywhere. In my surf lessons, italians, in the restaurants italians, I see constant signs all from italy...possibly because the memory of italy seems so far away now, almost like a dream. Sometimes I go back in my head and think about that day running through the sun flowers near cortona...and i get very happy. I felt a real sense of happiness after speaking to Mirko and Leonardo last night. I havent heard their voices in over month, we have text, but it is really not the same thing. Text messaging can lead to a lot of misunderstanding...what ever happened to just picking up the phone??
While my dream of meeting them again in santa croce, at times seems very far away...you never know whatthe future holds, or the possibilities you can create for yourself if you really want them, and understand the purpose.....