I wanna fly I wanna drive I wanna go. I wanna be a part of something I don't know.
It's saturday evening at home in Espoo. I just woke up about an hour ago (the time now is 21:42). It's kind of weird feeling since I got home from work at 6 am in the morning and slept till 10am and went to gym for 1 and half hour. Then back home to sleep some more. 12 nightshift at work in a row is taking it taxes. Now at least this one night off to take a breath from working. Planned to go out but that seems not to be happening tonight. Cannot even remeber when I have been just at home spending the weekend.
The summer weekends so far I have spent everywhere else than here in Espoo. Every single weekend since the beginning of June I have been somewhere else - in Jyväskylä: little sister high-school graduation, Copenhagen for one weekend after that, then in Seinäjoki at Provinssirock-festival, Midsummer party in Karstula, a friends hensparty/bacheloretteparty in Tampere, my cousins wedding in Alavus, then last weekend at work.. now here. A dear friend of mine is getting married next weekend in Tampere. U2 concert coming later in August. My another cousins' wedding is arranged in Tampere at the end of August.. I'm glad the weekends are filled with these kind of sweet activities since the work and working on thesis is sucking my energy during the weekdays.
I live for these summerweekends that are filled with everything special. Every monday is hitting me hard with the reality and stress caused by the fact that my graduation is dependent on my ability to study and write the final project. The date of final deadline is getting closer and I feel that this task is just unbeatable for me.. Everyone keeps saying that I can do it - I know I can and I really HAVE to but it sure is still a huge mountain to climb..
Australia in my mind I get some occasional energy boosts to actually get some words written. But it ain't easy. My motivation to go to gym instead seems like a piece of cake. But because the time doesn't give any ease on this and keeps going on instead, I really am facing the fact that the timelimits are soon just in front of me.. To avoid the desaster I am going to spent this upcoming night to work for the one that I should consider the priority nr. 1 at the moment. So my thesis - this night is for you -exclusively.
Australia in my mind - 70 days to go!