Leaving Rob was one of the hardest things I have ever done but somehow I find myself on the train looking out at a winter snowy scene, heading south to Heathrow for my flight to Bangkok. Getting on the train I remember that I booked in first class as it was cheaper than the standard fair. My first time in first class and it's a whole new world. I'm lovin' it and after also spending my last night in a nice hotel, I am acutely aware that standards are about to drop, dramatically! I am content and easily distracted on the train journey, it's not until I reach the airport, after checking in and getting through security that I have time to think about what I am actually doing. It suddenly hits me and before I know it I am that person: alone and crying at the airport. Luckily just at that moment Meg calls to wish me well, through streaming tears and a snotty nose I blurt out ALL of my fears; why am I leaving when I have such a good life in Edinburgh? Why am I leaving Rob? I don't know what is going to happen, or when I am going to see everyone anyone again. Anna grabs the phone and in full swing manages to give me the perfect pep-talk that convinces me I am doing the right thing (that girl's going to make an excellent lawyer), gets me back on track and thinking positively. I am so lucky to have such amazing friends! I know that this is the right thing for me to do, it's just difficult to make that first step and I am really going to miss all of the wonderful people in my life.