So, how do I feel, well, at the time of writing this I fel quite godd, but the last few days since my last blog have been amongst the worst days I can remember having. There have been things in the middle of this which have been great but otherwise I've just felt pretty s**t. Combine that with a seriously heavy cold and ridiculous chesty cough and it doesn't make a person feel to good.

Wednesday I really didnt wnt to get u but i told my self once up I'd feel better, which i did, sort of. Th grade 11's didn't turn up and the grade 10s said they didnt have any work, so being my very kind natured self, I mde a load of music theory questions up for them, lol :) Then I went for a walk through town with the other new teacher here who is great and saw his friend who lives here. At half 4 I helpd with athletics, athough i did no running, theres no way I could compete with the athletes here, they're amazing, so I just timed them, whilst slowly cooking in the sun :) I felt pretty ok during the day but after 6 when i'm on my own, it all just sort of comes crashing down, so i ended up just crying for like 20min, oh well.

Thursday was the start of the major bordum, yep believe it or not, im in SA and I got bored. I had no lessons today at all as the teacer i was covering was back, then after lunch I had nother to do either, so I went through putting a piano timetable together with megan, one of the music teachers, ses really nice and has helped alot. It started to thunder at about half 4 and then heavy rain, and I mean heavy rain, ive never seen anything like it, which cut athletics short. In the evening I did study with Flic, which is where you watch over the little kids doing their homework, from 7 till 8. This was an amusing evening as they all misbehaved, so there was alot of half shouting involved, + here you're allowed to grab them and take them where you want them to sit, without being done for assault like in england. As its so dark in the hostel in the evenings, I then had to escort to boys to the toilet, and then wait while they sat there, they even started to have a conversation with me whilst they were there, not really what I thought i'd be doing here, lol. I didn't get to upset today, I spoke to Flic alot.

I was supposed to go for a run on friday with Flic, at 05:00 ready for breakfast at 06.30 we didn't feel like it so that never happened, lol. Today was very boring again as had nothing to do all day except practice piano for choir and photocopy, or photostat as they call it here. Once school had finshed as there was nothing to do, I just bought a large bag of crisps and some chocolate and ate that, then slept, and yes they have cadburys here, yayyy!!! :) In the evening Flic invited me out for dinner with David and his parents. We went to comfey cottage which is amazing, the meal was brilliant, mushroom soup, beef staganoff, panacotta with berry sauce and then coffee, mmmmm :) It was also really good to get to know the all a bit better. Then after we went to the pub for a drink. Here though tere is no smoking ban, which I personally find hard because it means you have to put up with the smoke if you want to sociallise.

Saturday was a completely crap day, I woke up feeling like id been hit by a lorry, although the bed that dips like 30cm when you like on it probably didnt help and definitely made my back worse. I went for a walk around town, although this only took 15 min as the area I feel safe walking alone is so small. Then i just sat in my room all day doing nothing :/ At 6 I went up to the dam with Vien, another new teacher, in his car, although just before we reached the top, we ran out of petrol up the mountain, great :/ although it was quite funny until a car came behind. The was god though and helped us move it and gave us a lift down. So far Ive pretty much disliked everyday here and have just wanted to be at home, currently I have no idea how Im going to manage till august, but I will.

Sunday was probably my lowest day yet, having cried about -5 times thoughout the day and more than ever today I just wanted to be home. I didn't feel well at all in the morning so that probably didnt help. After lunch I was told I could move into my permanent room, which was great. I share the flat, if thats what you call this, with Vien, who is great, but doesnt have electricity in his room currently so all his guitar stuff and laptop is in my room which means he's in here a lot, also making alot of noise on guitar sometimes. Just when I wanted to be alone to unpack I couldn't, which just tipped me over the edge, again, and I went outside, upset again. When I came back up he'd gone so i finished unpacking and stuck all my photos on my wall and all my cards and all the pictures from Ben. I started up his art gallery again on my wall here, so send some more please Ben :) In the evening I sat and talked to Lisa and Tess, two girls from the hostel, about a year younger than me, it was really good because we sat outside and talked which clearde my head, plus is wasa clear night and the sky was amazing, we could see Mars and Jupiter and some shooting stars. They said sometimes you can see the milky way :D

This morning (monday) while everyone was in assembly, I spoke to Flic about how I felt, which ended up with me crying again, but hey, the conversation helped alot. I had a bit more to do today as the school watched some videos till half 10 and was in lessons from 12 which was good. I had to maths lessons to teach, which went ok, but if i'm honest, if d have been listening, i would have probably thought it was rubbish. Hardly anyone from the class turned up though. They don't listen very well, so you have to raise you voice a lot, or just ask who actually want to be here, and if you dont, get out. That works quite well as everyone then stays and shuts up, lol. I had one boy ingrade 10 who really wanted to learn, he came up to the front for me to help him work out some areas, so I helped him all lesson, which felt really good :) From 2 till 5 we had rehearsals for Holywood, a production they do during the passion play at easter. This was a great laugh as the drama teacher gets so made, he was yelling and swearing, I think my favorite part was when he said 'can't you walk in a straight line, I have chalk in my hand and it ll end up in your eye' haha, made everyone laugh. Then from 6 for a bit I worked with the music teachers to put together some backing music for the choir, which by the was is incredible. Apparently I'm really good on all the drums, which is surprising, seeing as today was the first time I've played half of them. It'll be a great performance when we get it done :)

I didn't really make that alot shorter but oh well, it gives me something to do. And sorry for the spelling mistakes, I dont check them, lol. Oh and on saturday I ate a bright pink sausage, it was an interesting sight, I'll take a picture next time, just for you Ratidzo, lol :) followed by a bright orange one yesterday, the things I ve seen here already :D Anyway I feel alot better tonight, so heres hoping for a brighter week :D