I slept better than i expected maybe because i didnt sleep that much the past couple of nights. I remember getting up and feeling sick as a dog. I felt like i was going to explode so was just quiet. As we sat there waiting to go to the airport in my head i was 'i cant do this' so i got impatient and said shall we go mainly as i was in the middle of changing my mind. It was a quiet drive down, then a stone chipped my car window, i laughed in my head this car hates the south second chip on the same motorway. Then subsequently decided to blame shaun to wind him up lol. My emotions were all over the place and had to keep the tears from falling. When we neared LHR my emotions got the better of me and tears started to fall, to be honest couldnt stop them at all..... it took to the next day for them to stop. When we arrived at LHR, checked in, went for coffee still crying then we went to the departure gate and we hugged goodbye. I am sure i saw tears in there eyes (they just cant do without me lol joke) When i went through security i was really gurning and the security man asked me if i wanted to wait for a while, i said i wouldn't come back. So went through security crying like a baby. Karen called me and i started to cry but i dont think she realised i just held back and we chatted then said our goodbyes. I then boarded the plan and i sat beside an old guy called robin, as the plane took off i started to cry again and he said i would be ok and not to worry. So i never really cry and then i cant stop the moral of the story is who knows lol Still dont know till this day why i cried so much.