There is a spirit deep within all of our beings that, when hungry, must be fed. The last thing I want to do is turn around in thirty years and say, "what the f*** was I thinking. This is not the life I pictured for myself, but now it is too late." Just do what makes you happy. That is all I know. You can't make everybody happy all the time. The least you can do is be true to yourself. Now I am beginning to feel like some sort of child psychologist trying to pass on life lessons to grown adults who already know better. Really, I just get a sort of relief from expressing my thoughts on paper. It calms the brain for me. Like a meditation of sorts. At home, I can surf or run or ride my bike. But out here, I have to find new ways to relax my mind and try to process all that goes in and all that comes out.

Days go by like water and it truly feels like you will never run out sometimes. But, reality trips you up now and again and here I am, in reality, in luang prabang with fifteen days left on my visa and I don't feel like ive even begun to experience this county at its best.

Last night was the first time since I embarked on this savage journey that I actually missed home. Not that I was upset about it. But, I started thinking about taking surfing trips up and down the coast or going camping in the mountains and becoming completely swallowed up and consumed by the vast expanses of nature found only hours away from my old front door. Maybe it was just a realization of how lucky I truly am to have been born in a place where you truly can live your dreams and still find encouragement in others no matter how strange you or your dreams may be. Not every place is as fortunate as the united states of pigs. Somehow I ended up there and now her I am, nearly half way around the planet feeling so far away. But, I know when I look up into the sky at night I see the same moon and the same stars as everyone in this god forsaken world. And I am satisfied to be a part of it. How wonderful it is to live your life any way you like and still find somebody out there who is living an even weirder life than you. I guess that's what being a human is all about. Then again, maybe I just think too much. Whatever the reality is, I am living it to its absolute fullest potential and have no plans of slowing down until my beast has been tamed and is ready for a rest. For some people, it takes a month. Others it takes years. But, at least we are all out here trying. Congratulations everyone for living the life you have chosen. You have no one to thank but yourself and likewise nobody to blame. This is the world we live in. lets try to leave it a better place than it was when we so joyously arrived. It's been real, it's been fun, it hasn't been real fun. But, ill be back for more,

Kelly