Yesterday in the gym, I was wondering how I could 'add value' to my partner's life. Sure enough, she relies on me for finance, travel, enjoyable international holidays, and liaison with the IFBB. Now that we are in her home town, it seems as though the only value I add, is finance. Unfortunately, that means that I am easily replaced. There is nothing within me that makes me unique and worthy of lifelong loyalty.
I thought we had something unique in the bedroom, but on this trip she has either been reluctant, or she does not take the initiative. Two reasons for this are that she is currently training very heavy and that she is fatter than normal due to bulking. In training heavy, her muscles are often sore and her energy depleted due to expending all focussed effort in the gym. Mind you, to me she looks fabulous, but she resents me saying that to her as she does not want to feel comfortable in a sub-optimal condition. I can appreciate both of these reasons, and although she does say that she loves me, it is somehow hard to see when she is often in a quarrelsome and ill-tempered mood.
In terms of adding value, I thought about earning qualifications as a personal trainer or competing in a bodybuilding contest myself. I am quite familiar with what is taught in personal
trainer courses, and I think she is also. The qualification itself would not add value in her eyes, but me successfully training others to competition standard would. As for training as a bodybuilder, that would mainly mean that I would have have a stricter diet with more cardio to reduce body fat. It's possible, perhaps next year during my planned study leave.
A simpler approach would be to train with her and improve with my spotting her in the gym. I should take the opportunity to do this over this, our last week together.