FEAR!

Waking up to the sunrise on a very cold and frosty morning!:)! The ice we had for drinks last night was still frozen, but blue sky's and it wasnt the weather we thought we would wake up to! :)

The blue sky continued to stay as the sun soon begun to warm things up. Thursday...full clean up of enclosure today, sawdust into the truck and put on the track. Along the way african lessons for me and english lessons for munta. I now know, that buy a donkey;thank you very much, skip;jumper, a moore; go away, rein;rain. I no afew more through listening but cant spell or prenounce them yet. Three loads were taken and the cheetah spotted along the way.... sitting watching us and began to pick up speed as we started to drive away from her.

Back to the rubbish dump today..... nearly let someone take the elephants wheel barrow.... the poeple who want to look through your rubbish... we had the wheel barrow with us and lifted it to get the other rubbish out and someone came up and pointed "wheel barrow" so i gave them the thumbs up....close shave, Andre came and explained they couldnt have it!.

Now i new what was coming after we got back from getting the branches so i didnt want us to get the branches fast but it soon came round that we were back at the reserve. Andre dropped us of .....at the reptile park!

Fear can grasp a hold of you, when your legs start to shake and you just want to be somewhere else but you tell yourself you have to do this! Theres so many different fears we have as individual's; of other people, events, the unknown and the natural world. When you feel paralysed by fear you understand how dibilitating it can be to actually be scared of something.

I told myself that if i am going to over come this fear i had to walk through the reptile park with snakes on eather side of me behind glass. Sitting on the grass once through, i listen to patrick explain about the species of snake and there venom and categories. One of the most deadliest snakes lives in this area also! And very dangerous one was spotted 10minutes previous just across the track from where we were!

He took the first snake out......... i couldnt sit down next to it, i looked at it....bright orange "ok its got a lovely patern not so bad....he put it on the grass and it did the whole snake thing,........ i quickly got a good distance away..... standing at a medium heighted wall...looked behind me and there was a small crocodile!!fright!!!

So i herd patrick say ill put this one back and get you gise a python "are you going to touch it?" he went away to get it.

Ok i am faced with the mental knowing that there is about to be a very large snake a couple of meters infront of this very spindly bush i am hiding behind....i know i need to get over this fear but i feel metally paralised i will look at the snake and deside. Patrick comes out.......no way!!! As much as i new i shoul i couldnt get any closer than i was!

I guess its a very mental thing fear... i feel slightly less afriad afetr patrick explaining about them and being able to look at one which was extremly close.... its enogh for me for now.... (until tomrow when we are ment to be involved in moving a cobra to be with anotehr snake) i will wait and see if i can watch that happening!

Tonight we had another fire, and a poiky (not the correct spelling) a big black metal pot that you put on the fire and slowly cook a stew etc in. Oh if i could take the food back i would, was amazing, hein made a chicken one...secret recipe sadly!. A great way to end another day!

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