Hey, so I found my password so I can now make my blog entry. Its going ok. Slept the first day and had drinks with Connor and Neil (irish guys). Yesterday I went to Dvenpor on the Ferry - 15 minutes away and sat by the sea - was a really sunny day - cold, is really cold actually - windy, but nice in the sun and had a cheap lunch in a little cafe called calypso, which was perfect for me (becasue of my stomache) becasue you could choose exactly what went in what you ate and it was cheap. Then I got the ferry back - took some quite nice pictures - really good day, checked into my dorm room and made friends with an irish girl called Fiona and went to sky tower with her. Then I spent about an hour searching for a supermarket or something other than kebabs and burgers that i could eat and failed and resorted to subway. Fiona and I went up to the kitchen and met Stuart amd James from London who gave me a map to get to a supermarket so i now I have all the food I need until Monday which is great. Unfortunately James left today to go to Fiji - probably got on with him and fiona the best. we all went for drinks in the bar and onsite club last night. Fionas friend from home has just arrived. Finding being around a lot of people hard tho have to say - like groups and I'm trying not to be quiet - I do find it hard when im not relaxed - like my face is constantly tense and I don't know I wouldn't say i'm anxious but i wouldn't say i'm finding it very easy to be relaxed and / at ease with people. Fiona and her friend have moved into another room now - not sure where they at the moment, Stuart and another girl Rachel have gone out somewhere I think, but then she is very quiet, but soemhow they get on really well - maybe its becasue she's not anxious I don't know. I've got on with everyone i've met, but I feel they get on with soemone else a lot better and a bit on the outside, even tho im not and that wasn't the case last night - i guess thats what happens when your quiet. Anyway i am making progress, I have met and spoken to people and know people in the hostel so maybe I will get better each day - i'm definatelely more relaxed than when i arrived so hopefully when I get to the not caring stage it won't be such an effort! I'M SOUNDING LIKE I'M NOT HAVING A GOOD TIME AND I AM. Having a quiet day today reading and eating- its grey and cloudy and cold and i'm trying not to spend much money today and tomorrow because then i can spend more with alana in christchurch. fly down monday. altho having said that i would like to go to the aquarium - maybe tmw - is quite expensive tho so not sure. everyone is v. confident think thats the problem, so i think im actually doing ok its just im with quite self assurred people so i dont seem like i am maybe. is v. surreal being here. good a bit not lonely but its strange ebcause i don't know anyone and nobody knows you and all you get is this brief impression of each other and then proabably never see each other again - cant decide if this is good or bad - good practice at meeting new people i guess. i think also i just need a bit of sun and a few more warm clothes. hope all is well in England. lots of love xxxxxxxxxxx