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Today I am really struggling...I could possibly be at the lowest point I have been at since I got to the US.
Rehearsals started a couple days ago and they are the most frustrating things ever! The line captain of the previous cast is in charge of us while we put up 'Do You Want To Dance' and 'Piano Man' and she is complete nightmare! Let me give you an image.... 6 ft, thin as a rake, blonde hair always in a bun and looks like she has a stick up her bum. No joke...this girl is socially inept and a b****. First of all quite a few things in the show are different to the way she knows them so every step is questioned and re taught if its not how she does it. Every step with her is precise down to the way the pinky finger sits...and I am not joking. You seem to loose your own sense of style because everything is so robotic and meticulous. We watched Alison (the line captain) in a performance the other day and the girl has no style herself when she dances and it looks terrible, I don't want to end up like that but it is so hard because she pulls you up on EVERYTHING! I almost cried in rehearsal today because I am literally at my wits end. Everything is getting changed and our actual line captain Alex and our assistant line captain are doing NOTHNG about it. They just bite their tongues which in the end makes us look like idiots. I am sick of being told of for little things I was told to do in the first place...I rehearsed in LA for a reason!!!! I know this is one of those "toughen up princess" moments but it is just so hard!
On top of all that I am getting extremely home sick...being tired and down does not help the situation. Internet is really slow here so it is really hard to keep in contact and Alaska hardly has any cell phone reception. Its killing me not being able to talk to the family...not even send them a quick message. I am struggling a little bit at the moment. With everything.
Its sad this entry is on such a low note because I didn't even tell you about getting off shore yesterday or the costumes for DYWD. Maybe when I am in a better mood hey :)
Fingers crossed things get better...I have faith it will!
Missing you all at home!
xxx
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