So I have 20min to burn and I am apparently not going to do homework, so I decided to write a little. Theres more to add to my list of things to write about. Karaoke with sakie, club id, the school festival, and i dont even know. But right now i just feel so distracted from all of that. I am unmotivated to go to class, though most people agree that its worthless and I feel like I am going to fail because I never go to class, granted its my fault but i have a feeling that if you were in the same position you would want to do the same.
Also I downloaded the new vanessa carlton cd the other day. Amazing btw. Theres a huge difference between this cd and her last ones. Unfortunate thing is there are some sad songs. In my opinion these are the best ones, but that doesnt do much for my mood. It also doesnt help that we have a military guy here that has more mood swings the a woman in menopause and a girl starting a new cycle of birth control. O yeah it was good times last night and both molly and I were super reflective. What is the point of it all, and molly came up with the fall. It may or may not be true, but at the time it felt right. I am currently lost and in the process of either being found or re-finding myself right now, because I am already a different person than I was two months ago. Which is an interesting and scary thought that someone can change so drastically in such a short amount of time. I really dont know where I am going right now, but since I am not a fan of suprises I hope I figure it out before I get there and reality slaps me in the face. O my emo days. I told molly I felt the same last night as I did after watching garden state. Have I talked about that movie yet, if not go watch it and see if you cant pinpoint out the things that meant something to me. At this point I am just rambling.
But dont get me wrong, I still stand by my last blog that I really do like it here and it will be sad when people go. I also know for a fact that I will be spending christmas in Korea, regardless of whether molly can go or not. I am excited, but for some reason it hasnt really hit me that I will be going to see even more of the world in such a short amount of time. I still feel like i havent seen any of Japan, and in all seriousness I really havent. I need to start planning a trip to Osaka, as that is where I really want to go over the next 3 day weekend in November. Home of okonomiyaki my favorite japanese food that i had at the festival :) The yakisoba was really good too. I will be going to hiroshima in less than 2 weeks now too. I am looking forward to it maybe but no not really. I feel like we have regressed to high school since they are having us pick groups and pick a leader who is responsible for everyone. Its stupid and my response was i will not be caged lol. I also told the teacher in class yesterday when she asked me if i was okay that I died, in japanese. I think she thinks i messed up, but no definitely not. In any case I need to find my purpose again and some motivation to make me not lazy, because right now I have nothing. Tomorrow I have to skip class again to get my China visa, so that will bring me to a grand total of I dont know how many days I have missed of class. Probably 2weeks of class out of 4 that I can miss. Too bad I have 2 solid months left. Kill me now. But for now i have to grab my crap and get ready to leave and hopefully get some dinner as I have no food in my possession.
Btw my picture is of me in Inuyama at a small temple. I dont remember if i ever talked about inuyama either. crap im behind.