so we went up into the mountains to dipilto the other day, a few miles from the border with honduras. with all that is happening right now with mel (zelaya) it´s a little scary, but las manos is where the action is and we stayed south so we thought we´d see/hear nothing. instead, MANUEL ZELAYA drove right past us! what a crazy experience! this was saturday.

sunday, watched the Copa Oro, and Mexico´s victory - everyone here was cheering for the U.S. that we watched with. After, we went to the regional team´s game... very interesting in many ways, did not enjoy being oggled the whole time though....

Been struggling with cultural differences surrounding family and the way that children are treated. I strive to treat all human beings with dignity, respect, and love, and that is not happening in my house right now. SOOOO hard to listen to people tell these little girls they can´t have the love that they want, need, and deserve.

Went to the pool again yesterday, rained a little while we were there though, and the man and his son oggled me and Monika so we barely got in... uncomfortable!!!

Last night we played Mario Kart, Monika, Cipriano, Pedro and I... and had a blast playing teams against each other. Monika and Cipriano wooped our asses ha. Oh well, we all shared some really good laughs. Think I´m getting a cold ,and I ran out of sinus medicine, since I shared so much with my Monika girl when her asthma was really bothering her.

Went to a naturalist yesterday, just for the hell of it, what a weird experience!!!!!! After a very long conversation, he told me I had an evil eye in my throat and we worked on clearing it out, that s*** gives me the heeby jeebies! I am 90% sure I deconstructed what happened there, but how can I be sure, it´s that small amount of doubt that gave me the heebie jeebies. Sheesh, I´m such a skeptic. I think he expected me to react more... severely but like I told him when he kept asking me how I felt about it, I said well... I don´t really believe in this kind of stuff, so I´m deconstructing it and analyzing it in my mind. But who knows... I guess I never will exactly. Creepy still.

Today is when Wilmer is supposed to get back, problem is no one has any idea what time he is supposed to be in Managua etc. so it´s not like we can go get him. Tomorrow Patrick gets in, but I don´t know if we are driving or taking the bus to go get him. He asked me to be there at the airport sicne he actually knows me, and he feels like his spanish is kinda weak... I kinda hope we drive, but that we take the car, and not the truck, if we only have a bag for patrick, it shouldn´t be that horrible to take the car, and then I can drive, which would feel really good I think.... to have the control of a vehicle under my body, etc and just to feel that power that I have.

I am feeling like an incredibly powerful woman recently, and it feels good. Instead of being pissed off about all the cat calls, etc I´m recieving, I´m starting to just make those small men and boys feel like they are nothing to me, and not give them the benefit of seeing me bothered.

I am sad to be coming back to the U.S. sooner than I want to, but I have so many projects and things that are waiting for me to start and continue working on. So that´s exciting! I´m not exciting about having to be there for RA training, but I already have a couple of other gigs going for that first week when basically no one is there.... Gonna help out with the acting for NSO and drive some international students to campus from the airport. Yeehaw! I want my electric toothbrush and no more mosquitoes, besides that I would be happy to stay here.

On a super exciting note, I´m going to head to San Rafael del Sud to see the clinic mama built when she was here, going to be able to see the ocean at least once before i leave, going to ride horses in the mountains, and i´m going to be able to use a machete. Those were my own personal needs for this trip, once I realized they would be easy to accomplish, and I have my own personal guarantee-er guaranteing that my goals can become a reality. HOW EXCITING!

love you all, chao chao!