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Well, it's now July 16th and I've been home a little over a month and a half. :( So much has happened and so many emotions have gone through me.
When I left England, that whole day was filled with sadness as I did not want to leave. I cried more in one day than I had all semester. Then, we landed in Chicago and the "Welcome to Chicago" sign was of London - it was a sign. I was nervous about being home, and still wanting to be in Pittville with the girls. As soon as I saw mom and dad, I knew there was a reason I had to come home - they had missed me like crazy. I turned my American phone on for the first time in six months and had so many messages. That made me feel better. I was anxious to see my family and friends that night at Chase & Lucas' open house. I didn't talk a whole lot that night and ended up bawling at one point. I wasn't ready to be home. It was nice to see everyone, but I wasn't ready to be back.
Anyway, time has gone on and there still hasn't been a day that I'm excited to be home. I have spent every day with either my family or friends. I had missed them, a lot. I've done some cool things since I've been home, and I've had a good time on random nights, but this is nothing compared to what my summer could have been in England.
I learned a lot about myself whilst being gone. I feel much more independent, mature, responsible, and I have a whole new attitude towards life. All of this has sort of hindered me being back. Nobody else understands what I've gone through; they agree it was a good experience, but can't believe I'm not excited to be home. And the problem is, words can't explain it. I have gained a whole new world of experiences, literally. I have friends in another country - they don't get how I can still remain friends with them. It's just, it has been tough trying to adjust back to America. The social life is nothing compared to England. The way of living is completely different. Yes, I do love being back with my family and friends, but I absolutely loved the way of life for the past six months.
I cannot wait to travel more once I've finished school. This, along with the two Jan-terms, has made me never want to settle in one place.
I am so thankful for this experience. Without the help, love and understanding from my immediate family and friends this would have never been a success. Everyday I think about the girls I lived with and the friends I met through them and all the wonderful memories we created. I am a very blessed and grateful young lady. :)
I'm excited to see what the rest of the world has in store for me. xx
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