Brutal heartcrushing homesickness. Cant seem to pull my head out of this funk for the last few days. Need sleep, lungs irritated and wanting tlc, so tonight will give them a prednisone dose and hope it works. But the sadness. A week ago i didnt want to leave. Today? I would love it. Sigh. Just

Ok. Back in ams. Things i do not like: mousterdsoep,the red light district and the yobbos, and the brainbreaking complexity of public transport. What i do love: bakfiets, bitterballen, HEMA, and my classes. Could i live here? Maybe. I am finding a wee love of canada i never had before but lemme find my feet here... Tired. In haarlem now. Hurty brainfried tired. Solitude. Bliss.