hi all well its my first day and this blog isnt going to be very nice

atm i hate it, to the point i acctually just wanna come home now, n hide in my room forever.
but i cant, for at the least a week, cos i have a return flight if i need it. so im gonna have to make the most of it, but im like a baby,
i just fell over in the street and i grazed all my knee n ijust started crying but id been fighting this amazing feeling of being alone for about 2 hours prior so thats why,
i feel really spoilt for feeling like this, i know its amazing, and i know its a wonderful oppertunity but i just feel terribly sad,
i had a bad time when i arrived at the hotel last night, it literally is the hotel time forgot, except these pc's which cost u 1 euro for 11 minutes WTF!!!???? my room had three single beds in it and a fridge, but no tea/coffee makin facilitites, it had a radio in the wall???? like a seriously old 50's style radio in the wall and little light switches that are buttons u press in, like from the army or summat.and i forgot my laptop charger,

i keep going up and down with my moods, at the moment, im talking to people on the internet, and i feel ok, slightly optimistic, but earlier i was just so down.
i would really like to meet somebody who is here alone too, because id like to do some stuff in my frist week, maily the water park, which i cant really do alone.
i went to the boat ill be working on today, all of the crew are like in their late 30's i was really gutted, im going tomorrow to find out what it will be like and hopefully younger ppl will be working there, or ill be able to find out that younger people are expected.
huff well i hope that i have a good day, ill report back tomorrow to let you know what happened.
everybody have a good day laurenxxxx