Well this is my first blog here! I figured I should talk about how extremely scared I am to leave. I think that stems from knowing that I'm leaving everyone. I have the BEST friends at school and hate that I just recently became close to a bunch of seniors who I won't even be able to say goodbye to when they graduate. Sorry guys. I feel selfish for doing this and I sometimes wish I could take it back. It really is scary but there's so much excitement as well. It's one giant mix of emotions, which doesn't help my already emotional phase I have going on.

I moved out today and I get emotional every time I leave people, so just imagine how hard today was for me. Even though I'll be back the first weekend of Jan Term, it was insanely sad. MC is such a big part of me and with that, the people there have grown to mean the world to me as well. It is so difficult to leave such a supportive and caring group of people. This semester has been the hardest for me and without people like Amanda Dickman and Kelsie Fieler who listen to every word I say, never judge me, and then give me advice, I probably would have gone insane.

But hey, this could be the best thing for me, right!? If you know me well at all, you know I over think just about every situation. So I'm kind of freaking out that I'll not bring enough or too much or just flat out fail. Yes, I know you're thinking I'm stupid because I'll have the time of my life but you know you would worry too! And yes, I know at the end of May I will look back and laugh at myself for being so scared and I'll soo happy that I went. But right now, I'm going to remain scared and uncertain.

By the way, I do type exactly as I talk, so get used to it! I promise not all of these will be so sad and bleh but I'm just explaining my current state!

I'll probably wait awhile for my next blog, so have a merry Christmas!!