The feeling that I have at this moment is so strange. In less than nine hours I will be boarding an airplane and heading back "home". When you leave for an adventure/trip, like the one that I am just finishing, the concept of it coming to a close isn't really tangible--it seems as though you have all of the time in the world. As the time slowly passes by you continue to feel that it is unending, but when it gets past the half-way mark you start to realize that there will be a final day arriving eventually. That point feels far off and you keep telling yourself how far away it really is. You don't want to accept that point. Well, that point is today and I'm amazed at how uneasy it makes me feel. Not bad, not good--just a sense of great change in the life that I am, and have been, living.
Now, for those that know me and the life that I have lived, you know that my life has changed dramatically over the last eighteen months. The dissolution of my marriage, and my drastic alteration of the life that I was living put me in a world of sadness and confusion. During that time I made some poor decisions and I made some excellent decisions. I, like most people (I assume), do not wish to live a life with regret. I have to accept that the poor decisions that I chose were my own and I have to live with (and hopefully, eventually correct) whatever consequences that those decisions bring (or have brought) about. I am inspired to be a better person because of the knowledge that I gain from the consequences of my bad choices. I look forward to the opportunity to correct my mistakes, wherever possible!
One decision that I chose was one of the best choices that I have made in a very, very long time. Taking this trip has opened my mind and my eyes to the possibilities and opportunities that this life has to offer. I feel truly blessed and fortunate to have had the time, finances, family, friends and business associates (which are also friends) that made it possible for me to even consider--no less actually take--this type of journey!!! I cannot thank you all enough for providing me with this chance and opportunity. You have given me back my heart and provided me with a view that has inspired me to live a more meaningful, productive, loving and focused life. I'm back!!! (*I know this sounds pretty corny...but you have to understand how much this has meant to me)
Okay, so enough with the sentimental stuff...I apologize, I'm just feeling very sentimental. I wanted to share some final great story with you all but I don't think I can collect my thoughts enough to put anything well crafted together right now. I'll have to follow up when I'm home and have an opportunity to calm down...it could be a little while as I'm sure being back in the States is going to be quite a shock to the system...we'll see. I did manage to put together one more album of my last bit of time...hopefully it will suffice until I can work out something interesting to tell you all about! Here's the link:
Also, for anyone that I may have added to my email list late, or anyone that is interested in seeing my notes again, here is a link to the blog-page that has everything I've written since I started my trip:
Alright then--thanks again for your interest (if you had any), and thank you to all of the people that have sent me wonderful notes and kept me inspired to keep writing these silly things...