Choosing the way of how to live ones life is I have found a rather curious thing. I don't recall pondering this before now and my immediate answer for this would be the sheer amount of time I have to spend thinking which in itself responded with another possibility. We choose to live life according to a collection of various people's expectations. This could be interpreted negatively for many reasons. It could mean I am unhappy and believe that this is due to other people. Or I lack control, I am easily lead or insecure and have little confidence in my own judgement. Not to worry though, it is none of this. I think it's just the nature of an individual with a number of roles to play and part of the expectation comes from the individual themselves.

I am in a very beautiful part of the world, I have met some even more beautiful people. I have conquered my fear of deep sea and of cats. I held Nemo in my hands and giggled, fogetting my snorkel won't allow me to do that without swallowing alot of water which made everyone else laugh underwater and eventually we were all hanging off different parts of the boat coughing and spultering.

I find myself sitting, standing, kneeling, brushing teeth when an awareness gradually creeps in as it does so transforms into a realisation I have been completely still as a statue for an unknown amount of time. It doesn't make me late for anything, it doesn't annoy anybody, it doesn't matter at all. This place really doesn't offer anything in the way of concern, worry, stress; all that stuff us westerners are so damn good at! There are no expectations. I initially felt lost and was unsure of the correct order of daily tasks. Do I eat breakfast before or after my morning brush?

I did some learning, I make my day EVERYDAY!