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So even though my truths are bound by way of a knowledge I can't even contain, makes me feel like a teenager again. And for that matter, a 26 year old. I know longer want to call myself 27..aging myself 3 months before my birthday. Im happy. Last night while staying with a friend, he asked me "why are people so needy?"...here's what I said, "love is not a feeling. Love completes the person in need and makes up where they lack." though new situations and discovery through this past month in Paradise, Ca I actually consider myself lucky. Yes I said it, lucky. However I also believe I am blessed. I don't like to leave things up to chance and the word "lucky" shows that. I'm not sure how I feel about the word "blessed" either. Even though I do believe in destiny and blessings from God whole heartedly, their needs to be a "middle of the ground" word for that. Famous people over use the word "blessed" and stupid people (i admit i'm stupid) use the word "lucky". I've learned to use the word "lucky", that way I can cover up what I'm really thinking about a situation. If a situation gets bad enough, I can call it "lucky". Stupid right? Well at the current present time I'm sitting on a friends couch drinking their coffee while I write and watch him sleep. He's an old friend from church when I was 17. We somehow left Paradise in route, 2 different paths 2 dreams and 1 goal..to never come back here. This all happened somewhere around 06'. I just so happens here we are, back in the same place with the same dream...again. After just co-writing a song and performing it at our youth pastors' (who just recently passed away) about a few days ago, we had our first "fight" as friends. But here I am again, with him. Forgiveness is a wonderful thing isn't it? 8 years have gone by without a blink, thinking about our last night together at 17 in my 85' Mercedes Diesel. I'm a bit of a freeloader these days. My story and discovery I have only begun to mention a word. It's it by way of "chance" that him and I have the same tattoo? Am I just "lucky" to call myself his friend again? If I screw this up, I can call it "luck" instead of being "blessed" with a truly beautiful friend and his family? Here's one thing to ponder today...
The funny thing about spheres; even if you continue to go West or East, your destination is always back where you started. You will eventually be at the place you began.
-J
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