Today has been a day for reflection. Reflecting on why I'm so worried how people perceive me. Why do I crave just one slice of recognition for the effort I put in. Why do I feel like such a failure at everything I do, it would be nice to wake up one day and for someone to be proud of what I've made of myself. Mistakes or not I'm not a bad person, all I want is to be a someone in a world full of no ones. I even question if love is real or if it just sits on the mind waiting to prey on the emotionally weak. I feel it's there it's just convincing myself she's feeling the same no matter how much she tells me, I suspect I'm fearing the worst and not enjoying the best. I'd like to wake up and this all be a dream, it would only hide the cracks and not the disappoint I am today.