So I've made it to Kalamazoo… transformations spirituality center. At present I'm waiting to speak to a sister or someone else to start me on the path to spirituality! I haven't done much praying lately and I guess its time I stat believing in something! With all religions you basically take from it what you find pertinent to your life as it stand. I guess the quest for me is to make it fit in all over in my life as a whole.. The positivity and strength people draw from prayer is un believable… when you walk into a congregation of hundreds you can feel the immense energy that's being let off its no wonder some say that prayer is like a drug! I guess in the purest of forms! I wish for guidance and hope that whatever it is I think I'm looking for, I find!!! I have been in prayer for over an hour and find it relaxing and peaceful. I personally don't see it as something I could do daily! I thoroughly enjoy how rested I feel and that I was able to ask for forgiveness… as we know my past life was an outrageous one. Having lived in sin my entire life and now working towards a new path is difficult and satisfying. I never thought that I would feel this way… simply through prayer! I have met an amazing woman here. She's the director, and hoped to talk to me again before I leave to see if I have come up with what I was searching for. I had to stop praying because my belly is growling, making it hard to concentrate on silence and reflection. I read through a mass book.. Interesting read for sure! It describes what the meaning of god is and how its incorporated into everyday life. I think that to be truly close to god that you have to act and not just listen! Very true indeed, I think that in order to really be spiritual you have to self sacrifice, be humble, non judgmental and always ready to lend a helping hand. You show faith through prayer and ones actions. If you are not true to your words it will resound through your actions. I love that saying: "Actions speak louder than words." How true it is, we are all so quick too speak our wants but are we truly willing to work to get them. I always strive to do what it is I say that I'm going to do, I wouldn't be true to myself if I did not!