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So here we are again.. its been a while.. even though the last time I blogged I promised I would write the rest of my scary Schiphol airport adventures the next day.. I broke that promise and I'm going to keep on breaking it. I've realised that I'm not really that ready to talk about it. To say what really happened.. and for those of you who are thinking that I should be over it or that I should get over it or that it shouldn't have affected me in the first place, YOU WEREN'T THERE. Plain and simple.. you weren't there. So don't try and judge me on something that you think you could have handled when you have no clue how it was. To be perfectly honest and as now my readers can tell.. it really affected me in a bad way. and I have no shame in admitting that I am seeing a counsellar about it.. well that and my anxiety about having to face the real world in a few months.
So what have I been doing since then? A LOT of school stuff.. I'm still working on my advanced pedology work and I had exams just friday. My final exam of this school year and hopefully forever! I am not sure how I did on it and I'm worried that I really screwed up my remediation question but thats all behind me now.. I have no other exams now except my Oral exam in August after I turn in my masters thesis. Speaking of masters theseses (thesesi?) I have a new project. No more podzols for me.. but now I am working on impacts of Volcanic Ash from Eyjajafallajokull on soil microbial processes. which is super cool and I get to do VOLCANO stuff!! :) which always makes me sing POTUSA's Volcano song in my head when I think about what I'm doing.. I wonder if for my presentation I am allowed to have background music because that would be totally sweet! I am actually just getting a start on it. but I have had to play a little bit of catch up because I have an interview on tuesday.. oh wait let me rephrase that... I have TWO interviews on tuesday in Wageningen. yes that means I have to go back to The Netherlands and Schiphol but thats ok.. I have to see how I'm going to do with it.. Anyway.. I have two interviews and I'm really excited for them.. I may even possibly have a third. These are both for PhD positions and I'm crossing my fingers that I may get one of the positions. if I don't then I've made the decision to stay in Aberdeen. At least until October when I must make my next decision of if I am staying or going back to the states. We will see.. but I still have a lot of work to do.. I have to finish my presentation which is suposed to be 15 minutes.. so I was thinking like 13 slides which will give me some leway but I think its going to be more like 20 minutes.. so I'm going to have to scale back a little bit. AND since I haven't done my actual work this is just going to be on back ground and experimental design stuff. Eitherway I'm very excited to see how this goes. and I have a full day schedule pretty much for 3 days.. I have two full days of traveling and a full day at the University doing interviews and walk arounds and lunches with PhD students and other Proffessors. This will be good.. even if I dont get a position its a good opportunity for me aswell.. and I would have kicked myself in the head for not taking this opportunity.
So speaking of how much I have to do. I really should be off to bed.. I need to get up in the morning to see if I want to talk to god or not. I was suposed to go into town today and get some things taken care of for my trip and what not but now I have to go tomorrow. and get my work done. and get ready to go.. and read my PhD descriptions so I know what I'm talking about during the interview. and clean and and and and and and... blah blah blah.. so good night everyone. I will write again soon.. hopefully after I come back from my interviews.. I'm sure I'll have a lot to say :)
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