well...im updating this way late but i am forcing myself to write though it is 11:20 pm. ...
my trip back home to douglas was...hard...its still not easy. i did not sleep the last week that i was there....i don't feel like calling anyone because i feel as if i am a burden to others..and that others are getting tired of me and hearing the same thing over and over again. ...i just started reading a book that points out that it is not good to listen to this inner voice...and that reaching out to God and people is important...of course God heals the wounds...but people that make you feel safe and are supportive should also be a part of the process...more on this later...
there are some memorable quotes from the time spent there:
1. me: i tell them about me eating some cookies at my house and giving that cookie box for the staff party...and how ppl knew it was me !
dad: the situation is hopeless. (complete deadpan)
2. me- why do we have a forest growing in the living room?
dad- plants...they give you oxygen in the night time!!!!
3. (while we are eating chola bhuture at home)
dad-you want to take the chola with you on the plane?
me- no, i don't want to eat them again
(5 minutes later)....dad- you want to take the chola with you on the plane?
me-.....wait...didn't we just....
4. this isn't a quote...but one of the best parts about being home was i got my first REAL hug from my dad =) he hugged me with his whole self...not a side hug (the usual) it was SO AWESOME!! it occured in the kitchen when he saw me hugging mom. when i got done hugging her he came up to me and gave me a huge bear hug! sweeeeet! this happened again towards the end of my time in douglas...i was hugging mom again and he came behind me and hugged the both of us! sweettttttttttt!
its getting quite late...and i STILL HAVE TO SHOWER (surprise surprise)...but i will update the douglas trip tomorrow but i will end with the best quote of the day (this is from school)
madisyn to her mom: can we take ms.singh with us?
madi: so she can jump on the trampoline
lynell- she might hurt herself!