Tomorrow it's a new year. Like every year I make a list 20 goals I want to achieve for the next year, and check last year's list to see how many things I actually did. This year has been pretty life changing. For the first time since I can remember I have lived by the day without making any plans. Of course there has always been an original plan; like going from Ethiopia to South Africa; but everything that happened between those destinations was completely impulsive and not planned. It was the journey that was the real adventure. I focused more on the journey than the actual goal. To live by the day is something I never thought I could manage. I remember working as a tour leader where we had to be flexible and available 24-7 and it nearly killed me not having a structured schedule; working hours and daily tasks. So, for someone who gets a panic attack when a meeting is postponed 1 hour, waking up in the bush and knowing that the bus might show up somewhere within 10 hours is pretty challenging. But I surprised myself by handling it quite well and I actually enjoyed unpredictable days and being able to decide which country to go to 2 days before departure. Of course I've had my ups and downs in regards to the whole "Living by the day"-concept. There were days when I missed the office work so much that pretended to be a CSR when I was talking to people on the phone or writing an e-mail. Even if it was just an excursion booking it sounded like I was arranging a conference for a very important business company. When we were around other tourists I pretended that I responsible for them and made sure they all enjoyed their stay. It must have looked ridiculous now that I think about it.
My list of goals is private, but the concept is to make me develop as a person and get one step closer to fulfil my dreams. It's just a one year plan so they are all realistic and it feels great when I can check something off. I started in 2005 when I was 15. Then my goals were all about where I wanted to travel and which football players I wanted to… hrmm, marry. Let's just say they were slightly less realistic!
The traveling bit has remained though, but 2013 is going to be different. No more long term trips or living abroad; it's time to move back home and do what I love. Do something I can see myself working with for many years further, spend more time with my family and settle a bit. I'm definitely looking forward to the year of 2013!