Which way do i go?
So i'm not travelling yet, just so you know from the outset. I'm feeling really confused at the moment, my life is pulling me in what seems like 100 directions and to be honest.. i don't know which way too turn. Even when i think i am starting to turn the right way something pulls me back into the middle and i feel a bit trapped.
I currently work for a reputable supermarket, have done since i left school. I completed my A-Levels (badly) and just started working full time. I'm in a supervisory role so i'm earning best part of £9 an hour now, working towards a management position where the pay is circa £19k pa. I hate the job, i feel like i'm looked down upon (although thats probably just a massive chip on my shoulder). I hate the boss, i think he is a complete tosser, and i think for nearly 8 years i have just been stuck in a rut and i'm scared of the real world as i've lived such a monotinous lifestyle. I.e. work 5 days a week, 1 holiday a year etc.
Add to that that i am currently in a relationship with someone, we've been together for nearly 2 years in April. As much as i love her she has children with her previous partner. These restricts the things we are able to do, and the kids get on my nerves at the best of times. I love my partner to bits but i feel like i have a lead weight around me as if i stay with her then thats the next 10 years of my life down the pan because of the children. I think in my ideal world, she would have no children and we would both pack our jobs up and leave to go travelling - but its never going to happen, not both of us at least.
So here come the dilemma!! I have been thinking about going and getting my licenses for LGV's (lorries) that in itself costs about £2500 to do all the training, i think i would much prefer this sort of work as it would be Monday-Friday and the same if not more money than i'm earning now, and i would still be with my partner.
The alternative is to go to Australia. I visited the country as a tourist in 2009, loved the place and have longed to go back on a working holiday visa. I'm just really concerned about sacrificing my job, my relationship for the sake of a few months in the sun working and staying in hostel dorms. IS IT REALLY WORTH IT?
i don't want to look back on my life with regrets wishing i had done something when i had the chance. At the moment i just feel like i am exsisting, doing the Born-School-College-Work-Retire-Die. But on the other hand i am in my comfort zone, doing something i am good at, will be able to afford to buy a house in a couple of years and live happily ever after.
I'm really hoping that you complete strangers can look on this from a completely unbiased point of view, and i understand i am the only person who can make the decision. I hope someone out there has been in the same sort of boat as me, would love to know what you did and what the result was.
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog... looking forward to hearing some feedback and of course i will keep you all updated on my journey... :)