It feels so good to be at Evergreen. I love this place. It's like the f***ing Brady household. Megs mum Peg just gets off on tending for the people she loves, so it's all about giving you whatever you need. A bath? Food preference? TV? Movies? Tea? Cuddles? All available all the time. All you have to do is ask. :-)
The departure from Boulder was bumpy. Without going into too much detail, Richard and I came to blows- he's very....sensitive and has some major jealousy themes running, and I guess having me in the house for a week while he and Meg are disentangling from relationship in their way has been challenging for him. For allof us really. Anyway, it blew up. It felt good to yell at him. I've been wanting to for a while cuz I think he's f***ing crazy for letting Meg get away- but that's another story really. But the way that R does life is rally really intense. He's processing all of the time and I feel really exhausted. Meg calls that house a trauma vortex and that feels accurate to me.
So driving out of there I could feel the weight unloading from me as we put space between us and Hawthorne. And it couldn't be more polarized here. I like it. So I sort of worked out that just being here feels better. My journey home is going to long and take energy so I put in a preference to stay out here til I go tomorrow. So that's the plan- head back to boulder and pick up my gear and drop off the girls (we've had Mahayla and Kamahla here with us) and then come back out and chill for the night- do my repack and rest up before tomorrow.
Being up here in Evergreen has also been really good in terms of some good quality time with Meg. She seems totally exhausted, but doesn't seem to be allowing herself to stop fully. We hung out for a while after everyone had crashed last night. It was nice. I'm going to miss her.
I've been talking to Kirra. It really feels like time...we've both had enough of being apart. I have a deep ache in me that intensifies when I think about her. It's time. We've done some massive journeying in ourselves over these past few weeks. None of it has been "blog appropriate", sufficed to say that it's been huge, we've grown in leaps and bounds and need to integrate it all.
I fly out at 2ish tomorrow. We're going to head in to Denver a little early and have a wander. I haven't really seen the city, so that'll be good. Hit Macy's for sme last minute shopping. Three pack of Armani underwear for $20! Must have.
Well, I guess this will be my last post....? Not sure if I'll get on anywere else en route. Thanks for following my trip! It's been fun having you along ;-)