26.6.2008

What an ending!

I know that we still have one more day to go but we had just emotional time when doing our 5min demonstrations today in front of the whole group. You could see the colours of people's personalities reflected clearly, some personal stories, own experiences with yoga, with life…some physical demonstration and a lot of tears. Tears of realising how far we had come on this journey of 2 months, how much we mean to each other…

I absolutely loved Takako's little poem which I think summed up what yoga is. This is what she thinks in her sun salutations:

I'm being in stillness in a rainy day and in a sunny day

I pray to the sun to ask who I am

But I realiseI had already had the answer in myself

I'm a little lotus flower

I appreciate and found it, so I feel comfortable and steady

I pray to the sun

I'm being in stillness as a lotus comfortably and steady

Just being and being…

And then Timothy also did an amazing demonstration where he had pre-recorded his own speech, as he showed a few poses he shared words of wisdom, and answered certain questions I was asking myself only yesterday. "Everything on the outside world changes, if we seek happiness on those changing things we can never be truly happy. What remains constant is our home, our true self. Not the body because that also changes, not the mind because that also changes, but our essence, our being…which is one with everything else." There was a point he was doing a shoulder stand and said something like "sometimes our world is turned upside down, what we rely on then?" ….I mean the whole was just so moving and beautiful. It truly shows how much yoga means to us, how intertwined it is in our life, in our relationships, in our observations…We see the world differently, more aware and I'm ever so grateful for this…

We later all went out for lunch as a group to Kahurangi. It is always great to get to know John and Lucy outside of the yoga studio, see the fun side of them and daily routines, hear them talk about their pets, their children…

And as I type this diary entry we are being interviewed, more a process of giving feedback on how we need to move forward in our teaching, in our sharing and in our being. The advice I had from John and Lucy was to grow up, but not in a way of being more serious, but learning to be more authoritative, more confident and having belief in myself and my experience with yoga, but at the same time remain with the openness I hold, my open heart. I thought that was beautiful. They are happy that I'm returning for 5 more weeks to study with them as they really want to work me harder in my practise and my personality as a whole.

So when I return to Stillpoint, especially after doing another 10day meditation in Australia I will become the experiment board, my diary entries will become more personal and the journey will be deeper down that rabbit hole.