2.6.2008

Change is inevitable

We sat around the breakfast table this morning counting how many days we have left and where we'll be flying. In 30 days we will all sail away to different parts of the world, and what brought this mindset was the fact that 4 people had already left yesterday. I'm sure once we get going with the course next week we will be as present as we have been in the last weeks again.

It felt strange this morning to practise, missing those who would also be in the room. Jamie humoured it later to cheer us up "those 4 are getting lazy, why weren't they at practise this morning?"…

It's hard to describe this change, especially given that no other new students have arrived yet. We're in a bit of a limbo. Leaving Malin at the backpackers in Nelson, then taking Scott to airport yesterday felt strange but at the same time we were all grateful for the amount of time we spent together and the bond we had created.

Everyone agreed that we didn't really want to talk last night and just wanted to veg out in front of the TV. We all watched the Interpreter and then Take the Lead, eating in front of the TV, Anandi and Jamie drinking bottles of beer (and having a cunning plan on how to dispose the evidence from the recycling bin so John and Lucy do not see it!)…I think this silence was a good way of dealing with the change because when we talk about it we simply go round and round in circles.

I somehow feel in a good space, since learning to have gratitude and appreciation, and then letting go! I know that I will see Scott in the UK, feel like a brand new friend who I can talk to about anything and feel his support; and Malin being so close in Europe I knows that our paths will cross. It's Debi and Dorris whom I may not be able to see so soon but the connection is never lost.

And I still feel pretty grounded at Stillpoint, a little more silent and reflective today, so a visit to the tree will be handy!