30.4.2008

Finding stillness finally

I've found a very reliable, solid friend whom I visit on a daily basis now. You see a picture of it here, a big hug that I feel I ought to give it on a daily basis as well. I dont know why some think hugging trees is weird. Why do you hug a cushion, or a teddy bear? At least a tree is a living being. May be rough outside but very soft inside, very compassionate, gives you shade, gives birds a home, sucks in all our pollution and above all grounds people, wisest of all plants I reckon. Anyway, I always said that if I was coming back a rooted living other than a human or animal I would like to be a tree, so here we go...I connect very much with trees. So after my meditation this morning I headed out into the fields in the misty morning to visit my tree. As I watched it in wonders I saw the brightest red mushroom growing underneath it. I'll have to take more photos of this tree.

Practise is getting stronger by the day, I seem to be gaining strenght, momentum again. John is working me deep into backbends and dropbacks, he reckons I'll come up soon...some of you heard that one before!! Especially when I was in Kovalam. The day I get up from a dropback there will be big celebrations.

Anyway, both the girls have gone into town so I'm still at Stillpoint. I really needed it I think. Some of it was from getting to know the place and finding my feet on the ground that I was very restless for a few days, too much vata flowing around. I didnt want to sit still unless I was meditating or reading, I didnt want to engage in conversations as I found my mind wondering as people were talking to me. But all have calmed down. Infact I'm finding love and energy all around me now, let it be in nature and in people.

I noticed that I was pretty much on the outside world but managed to break the barriers again through meditation and books to learn and get deeper again. I like talking to a particular being here also, a very cute being:)