19.9.2008

On route to London

Well as I am about to leave Tokyo and return home why not write about how I feel. I wouldn't call it returning to beginning as that isn't possible, even the terminal 5 I will be landing to is new to me. I had the anxiety of "what if things are just the same when I return" a few months ago but soon realised that wouldn't be the case.

I sure had the time of my life, yet another significant turning point in my life this year. And as I try to explain how I feel, well words may not be accurate. I feel that I am aligned with my purpose in life, having had the opportunity to step outside the box and look at my life I realised that there was the element of stuckness or the sense of misplacement. However I now understand that even those were the pieces of the puzzle, I needed to feel those to get to where I am now.

So having made some amazing friends, knowing in my heart what I'm about to return and start up there is a huge sense of contentment, joy that fills every cell of my being. And practising being in the moment has shown that my intuition has strengthened, my relationship with people has deepened and how I have organised my mind to see things differently have worked. I see signs everywhere I look, I hear wisdom from all strangers and above all feel blessed and fortunate. I walk with the presence of a guide with me, perhaps inner wisdom or my Sawney as I discovered from Lucy!

So last night as I lost my self in the delightful presence of Takako's 80 year old mother, holding her hand and looking into her eyes I could sense that the separateness no longer exists. We danced Japanese traditional dance together, counted our steps, clapped away and laughed…These are the moments of feeling that unity, they are in every moment if we can let it be…

Ok, on to my plane…so looking forward to London now, I have my home in my heart and my midline that is firmly grounded. As john has said "know that you are not the leaf being blown by the wind, but you are the wind blowing the leaf". I'm about to take control and fulfil my purpose, teach yoga with passion, help people awaken and feel alive!

Yes!