27.2.2008

We don't know what we have until it's gone!

There is a truth in this saying; often it is so easy to take places and people for granted. As much as we notice their being and enjoy their company it is always when we have to say goodbye to them that we appreciate them so much more. I had lessons of this in the past from the loss of my brother, how closer we could have been and how much more time we could have spent, or perhaps it's the quality than the quantity…

Anyhow since then I always ensured that there are no grudges between me and people- instead if I feel that someone is draining my energy or being negative I simply walk away from the situation. I often talk about my feelings and allow myself to be weak and vulnerable. I tell people the truth, compliment them, and appraise them- I feel that people often criticise themselves way too hard and not seeing their strengths…

So a boy came for a few weeks, we had a great connection in the sense of being open and sincere, helped each other with whatever the reason of our journeys was here, we had fun moments as well as frustrations with India but anyhow had relaxing few weeks. It also wasn't the quantity of time that was important because sometimes we didn't see each other for the whole day and yet it was the quality, those conversations late at night or over a bowl of porridge. So now he leave today and I had to admit that the most challenging part of this year was saying goodbyes, sometimes to people I spend a few days with and sometimes to people I spent a few months week. So many people are leaving Mysore in the next few days. As much as it is disturbing to let go I understand that this is part of change, it is inevitable that people will move in and out of our lives, that it is great to have met, start new friendships and so on. It only takes me a few days to adjust often and after all I am still very happy to be where I am this year and the great adventures to come.

On that note, to know what I have before it is gone, and to appreciate things I made a gratitude list yesterday. It made me fill with more joy and love!

I won't say goodbye to those great people I met in Mysore but say "soon you again soon"…