31.12.2007

Just do it, stand up!

It is the last day of the year, although it feels like yet another day in Kovalam. Sometimes I have to wait to hear peoples conversations about "what are you doing tonight to celebrate" to remember the importance of today. I dont feel like reflecting on my year or being lethagic about it though. I feel so much more grounded and happy instead.

So today is about the past few days of what I have been trying to accomplish in my yoga, which is never about what happens on the mat for me but much more. However that isnt so important to explore right now. Anyway I went through some emotions when I showed up in Kovalam and and teh expectations of staying here long enough to work on my yoga practice (well, nothing else to do I guess) and to my surprise Lino decided to hold me back from progressing until I was able to drop back from standing on my own and come up on my own. So the last few days have been so much fun, to a degree of ridicul, of me thumping down with my hands like an elephant and rocking backwards and forwards aimlessly with the hope that momentum could get me back up. As this happens the figure I have standing over me is Lino, looking with a face of "what the f*** are you doing" and giving me the only instructions "now inhale and stand up, just do it"...Aaargh, I think I need a little more than that. In the end he does help me stand up and says "whats the problem", to which I reply "I dont know". So I have friends who watch me with amusement, who try to give me tips over breakfast about how they get up adn what works for them. I appreciate it all, adn I know enough now to write a book about getting up, but does it actually make me do it? NO!

So its like what I knew would happen, its not about knowledge but its about experience and doing it. Until I have done it I won't know what is the "problem". In any case I'm having so much fun with it, highlight of my trip here so far:)