18.4.2008

Back to the beginning!

I've done a full cycle in 6 months and ending my India trip in Goa. We arrived from crazy delhi with crazy delhi belly 4 days ago. Mum hasnt completely recovered and Raman and I arent 100% but still making the most of the beach life, living in a beach hut, running into the ocean whenever we feel like, going for long beach walks (to pass time, to lose some of the weight I gained and now to become a lobster!) and simply sitting and contemplating. Since reading the Power of Now, I've done many walks on the beach meditating. Maybe looks pretty weird from outside but amazing all that I noticed...

This morning was the boat trip out to the ocean to see the dolphins. We left at 7am whilst it wasnt very hot and the water was very calm. It took us a while to notice the pack of dolphins. What great animals, so graceful, so playful. They did the most amazing jumps and flips! Dolphin life rocks...Imagine just having no worries in life, being so free and doing whatever you feel like without any fear? When I saw one of the high jumps my heart skipped a beat...Although I'm not anywhere near a dolphin's lifestyle I felt pretty content that I am feeling just as free at the moment.

Also being so far out in the ocean brought up a lot of anxieties from the water again, the fear of falling in and not being able to survive. The closest I can describe is fear of heights. I seem to experience that in the great depths of the ocean, I have such respect for water..Maybe next life time, surely I'll be more relaxed on water:)

I had some great news from Quntas as well, that I can have a stopever in japan on my way back to london. It was something Taka put in my head when I was in Mysore, and meeting so many Japonese yogis...I'll be going there afterall:))

Well, I have no feelings about leaving India, I'm neither sad nor happy. I think I know that its is time to move on, to more challenging times of studies with John in New Zealand. But lets see what arises at the airport as I have to wave goodbye to this amazing trip and amazing experience (well, that'll stay with me always)